The other day I got to talking with one of our senior partners at the lawfirm about some case he was working on and what a big mess it was with this company that had been bought up and merged with some other company and split it by the EU and stuff, it was a big mess. So I told him to "just google it, you'd be surprised" but he didn't really believe me so he asked if I could do it. So I got 3 things to look up on the internet, information about 2 different companies and try to find if they had anything to do with each other and the third was to find info about some guy that was involved. After about 3 hours of searching around I had complete background info of both companies and how they were related (which unfortunately for them they were!) and a pretty good biography of that dude, including his wife's age and maiden name.
It's scary what you can achieve with all the public search engines and archives on the internet. And it also got me to think just how much information someone could put together about me an dmy family only using this website... let's hope noone ever has a reason to do that!
I Love Christmas!
Seems I had so much fun I kinda forgot this place and wishing everyone a merry christmas!
But I hope you had a jolly good weekend and holiday, I sure did. Nothing spectacular. As always I spend it "at home" with my parents and my sister and her kids coming over and my "brother" joakim as well. Had a very very relaxing christmas, plenty of fun and way too much food. I gained like 3 kilos in the past 2 weeks, thank you very much for that. But I guess that's the standard for this holiday, isn't it? Then I had my friends over here for some movie watching and catching up on what's happening and tonight I'm going to my old friend Henrik's place, you know the guy that got married. He got a PS3 we need to break in with alot of gaming and stuff with the old crew from high school, that'll be a blast I hope. Then I got no plans for the coming weekend what so ever and since I'm >30 now I'll need it to recover :)
Here's hoping you're having as much fun as I am!!
But I hope you had a jolly good weekend and holiday, I sure did. Nothing spectacular. As always I spend it "at home" with my parents and my sister and her kids coming over and my "brother" joakim as well. Had a very very relaxing christmas, plenty of fun and way too much food. I gained like 3 kilos in the past 2 weeks, thank you very much for that. But I guess that's the standard for this holiday, isn't it? Then I had my friends over here for some movie watching and catching up on what's happening and tonight I'm going to my old friend Henrik's place, you know the guy that got married. He got a PS3 we need to break in with alot of gaming and stuff with the old crew from high school, that'll be a blast I hope. Then I got no plans for the coming weekend what so ever and since I'm >30 now I'll need it to recover :)
Here's hoping you're having as much fun as I am!!
My Friends Are Happy, I'm Happy, Everybody Is Happy!
This sunday I realised something quite lovely. After catching up with alot of old friends at the wedding and chatting with other friends on MSN and stuff, I came to the conclusion ... everyone of my friends and everyone around me is in a pretty happy place at the moment. Ok, maybe not my sis, but she's doing a good job of faking it.
But my old friends from school are all happy, married, kids and all that shabang. My bestest buddy Mats is happy his chick got a job up here in stockholm so they can finally live together. Another friend went through a minor depression but she's all better and cheerful. Everyone is just happy. And you know me, when my friends are happy I'm happy. If even one of them is miserable it's enough to make me lose sleep over it thinking "what can I do". Seriously, happened last week for example. But that was then, this is now so everybody is happy in time for Christmas!!... or they just know I lose sleep when they aren't so they just don't tell me nothing :(
But my old friends from school are all happy, married, kids and all that shabang. My bestest buddy Mats is happy his chick got a job up here in stockholm so they can finally live together. Another friend went through a minor depression but she's all better and cheerful. Everyone is just happy. And you know me, when my friends are happy I'm happy. If even one of them is miserable it's enough to make me lose sleep over it thinking "what can I do". Seriously, happened last week for example. But that was then, this is now so everybody is happy in time for Christmas!!... or they just know I lose sleep when they aren't so they just don't tell me nothing :(
Canterbury Tales Redux
So here is the story of me going home after the wedding:
The party was at a place called Ängby Slott which is west-north-west part of stockholm which is an area I've been in twice in my entire life. But being the practical "thinking of everything" person I am I had checked "how to get home" and as always taxi rules but subway was an option. When they threw us out I tried getting a cab and failed, no cabs available in the vicinity, so tha hell with it, lets walk to the subway. First problem was I didn't know what was north or south, no references at all. So I tossed a coin and went this way. And that turned out to be correct! Unfortunately the train was 20 minutes away so I sat down to wait. Normally in these circumstances I am very quiet and keep to myself and don't bother anyone. Tonight was gonna be different!
At first there was this elderly lady that sat down next to me. The entire hall was empty, she had like 40 seats to chose from but she sat down next to me cause I "seemed like a nice man", and then she got to talking how the youth of today was so rude and disrespectful that if she sat alone somewhere some kids would see her as easy target. So we sat there, trashing todays youth, talking about stuff and how lovely weddings are, pretty nice chat. Even though I was pretty wasted.
And then onto the subway at Åkeshov going all the way down to Hagsätra which is 26 stations!! At Brommaplan a young couple boarded that was in a very heated discussion about Lars Brandeby vs. Micke Persbrandt as best actor and I joined in on that conversation. I have no idea why but I joined in and before they left on Odenplan we'd all agreed Micke won. On the central station a woman with a ... distinguishable hat sat down next to me and on the nexts seats a bunch of these teenboppers sat down, very loud obnoxious disrespectful kids and one of them thought it was a good idea to always spit on the floor, which you really don't do on the subway. But I minded my own business. But the woman next to me politely asked him to stop and he started up with "you really think I care what some ugly chick with a stupid hat say!? Shut up, as if I care!" and on his second round of that speech I got up and grabbed him as hard as I could and shoved up against the wall and got right up in his face and did the worst bad boy one-liner impression I could. The guy got shitscared and was desperately looking for someone to help him but everyone was as annoyed with him as I was. So after standing like that for 2 minutes he was almost ready to cry and I let him go and he jumped off at the next station and I went back to my seat and pretended it was raining, wondering if that was a good thing I did or not. I have no idea what the woman next to me thought cause I never really saw her that well and she went off a few stations after.
Then at Globen the next funny bunch came in - 5 20 something kids that had been out partying for the 5th day in a row and we ended up with a new product - "post-party bag" containing everything you need after any party. It was everything from plastic puke bag to flashlight and even a compass (see earlier that evening). It was a hilarious discussion where my years of experience came in handy and we even named the product but I have no idea what, but it was fun! Then I ended up in Hagsätra and walked a mile or so to the busstop and waited for the buss and that's when I did it again. Yeap, I yanked up my phone to start texting my friends! Everything from inappropriate perverted jokes with the groom to "don't you dare get married!" jokes with my bestest buddy. And then buss home, walked another mile to my apartment, sent off the last few messages and hit the bed with a big fat smile on my face!
And how long did that all take me? Well we were thrown out at 01:30. And that last text message went out at 03:56. That's 2 hours 26 minutes for what would otherwise have been a max 30 minute taxi ride. But in all fairness I would never have had those four very funny experiences had I gone in a cab hom so I am very happy I didn't. Who knew the subway could be that fun? Who knew I could be that conversational!!
Update: I remembered the name as I was walking around in the christmas shopping chaos - "Party Pose"... which kinda only works in swedish (intoxicated at 4 am, "Pose" and "Påse" do sound alike!)... man that was fun at the time.
The party was at a place called Ängby Slott which is west-north-west part of stockholm which is an area I've been in twice in my entire life. But being the practical "thinking of everything" person I am I had checked "how to get home" and as always taxi rules but subway was an option. When they threw us out I tried getting a cab and failed, no cabs available in the vicinity, so tha hell with it, lets walk to the subway. First problem was I didn't know what was north or south, no references at all. So I tossed a coin and went this way. And that turned out to be correct! Unfortunately the train was 20 minutes away so I sat down to wait. Normally in these circumstances I am very quiet and keep to myself and don't bother anyone. Tonight was gonna be different!
At first there was this elderly lady that sat down next to me. The entire hall was empty, she had like 40 seats to chose from but she sat down next to me cause I "seemed like a nice man", and then she got to talking how the youth of today was so rude and disrespectful that if she sat alone somewhere some kids would see her as easy target. So we sat there, trashing todays youth, talking about stuff and how lovely weddings are, pretty nice chat. Even though I was pretty wasted.
And then onto the subway at Åkeshov going all the way down to Hagsätra which is 26 stations!! At Brommaplan a young couple boarded that was in a very heated discussion about Lars Brandeby vs. Micke Persbrandt as best actor and I joined in on that conversation. I have no idea why but I joined in and before they left on Odenplan we'd all agreed Micke won. On the central station a woman with a ... distinguishable hat sat down next to me and on the nexts seats a bunch of these teenboppers sat down, very loud obnoxious disrespectful kids and one of them thought it was a good idea to always spit on the floor, which you really don't do on the subway. But I minded my own business. But the woman next to me politely asked him to stop and he started up with "you really think I care what some ugly chick with a stupid hat say!? Shut up, as if I care!" and on his second round of that speech I got up and grabbed him as hard as I could and shoved up against the wall and got right up in his face and did the worst bad boy one-liner impression I could. The guy got shitscared and was desperately looking for someone to help him but everyone was as annoyed with him as I was. So after standing like that for 2 minutes he was almost ready to cry and I let him go and he jumped off at the next station and I went back to my seat and pretended it was raining, wondering if that was a good thing I did or not. I have no idea what the woman next to me thought cause I never really saw her that well and she went off a few stations after.
Then at Globen the next funny bunch came in - 5 20 something kids that had been out partying for the 5th day in a row and we ended up with a new product - "post-party bag" containing everything you need after any party. It was everything from plastic puke bag to flashlight and even a compass (see earlier that evening). It was a hilarious discussion where my years of experience came in handy and we even named the product but I have no idea what, but it was fun! Then I ended up in Hagsätra and walked a mile or so to the busstop and waited for the buss and that's when I did it again. Yeap, I yanked up my phone to start texting my friends! Everything from inappropriate perverted jokes with the groom to "don't you dare get married!" jokes with my bestest buddy. And then buss home, walked another mile to my apartment, sent off the last few messages and hit the bed with a big fat smile on my face!
And how long did that all take me? Well we were thrown out at 01:30. And that last text message went out at 03:56. That's 2 hours 26 minutes for what would otherwise have been a max 30 minute taxi ride. But in all fairness I would never have had those four very funny experiences had I gone in a cab hom so I am very happy I didn't. Who knew the subway could be that fun? Who knew I could be that conversational!!
Update: I remembered the name as I was walking around in the christmas shopping chaos - "Party Pose"... which kinda only works in swedish (intoxicated at 4 am, "Pose" and "Påse" do sound alike!)... man that was fun at the time.
Oh What A Night
Ok that was a blast! I really didn't expect to have _that_ much fun, for some reason, but it was!!
The ceremony was beautiful, usual slip of the tongue (mostly by the priest!), then off in a buss with a driver that took a wrong turn so we had to walk for a little while but nobody seemed to mind. The dinner was good even though it never got that chatty. One funny little thing they had done was a little pamphlet with various information in it and they had listed all the guests with a small little note that was intended to stir up some conversation or atleast open it up. Unfortunately on me they had written "hates NPC:s, Razer ftw!!" and when people asked I had to explain just how white and nerdy I am!! I had no idea we were suppose to hold a speach, apparently "childhood friends" are suppose to do that? So between the four of us we came up with... nothing really, and I fucked up my little bit of nothing, but atleast we got another toast out of it. Then tables away and the dancefloor was open and I was up there... thrice I think, one of those times ended up with me on the floor... you had to be there. And then one of the more interesting rides home. But I'll update about that tomorrow cause it's gonna be long!
Some great memories from that day : Johan doing the imperial march from Star Wars as the bride entered, Jannes uncontrollable yawns during the ceremony, the buss getting stuck, the Andersson family's version of "Världens Bästa Bamse" (give mp3!), the peppar steak, the cake, the two people with the cameras that were everywhere (one of them even joined the dancefloor!), all the 80's music, Jocke and Johans two dances.. or whatever that was, my new two personal heroes - Jonas and Lars and the ride home.
And only one "are you dating anyone yet?" and three "who are you here with? What, you're single? But you''re 32!". Wouldn't be a wedding without them!
All in all - kick ass wedding!!
The ceremony was beautiful, usual slip of the tongue (mostly by the priest!), then off in a buss with a driver that took a wrong turn so we had to walk for a little while but nobody seemed to mind. The dinner was good even though it never got that chatty. One funny little thing they had done was a little pamphlet with various information in it and they had listed all the guests with a small little note that was intended to stir up some conversation or atleast open it up. Unfortunately on me they had written "hates NPC:s, Razer ftw!!" and when people asked I had to explain just how white and nerdy I am!! I had no idea we were suppose to hold a speach, apparently "childhood friends" are suppose to do that? So between the four of us we came up with... nothing really, and I fucked up my little bit of nothing, but atleast we got another toast out of it. Then tables away and the dancefloor was open and I was up there... thrice I think, one of those times ended up with me on the floor... you had to be there. And then one of the more interesting rides home. But I'll update about that tomorrow cause it's gonna be long!
Some great memories from that day : Johan doing the imperial march from Star Wars as the bride entered, Jannes uncontrollable yawns during the ceremony, the buss getting stuck, the Andersson family's version of "Världens Bästa Bamse" (give mp3!), the peppar steak, the cake, the two people with the cameras that were everywhere (one of them even joined the dancefloor!), all the 80's music, Jocke and Johans two dances.. or whatever that was, my new two personal heroes - Jonas and Lars and the ride home.
And only one "are you dating anyone yet?" and three "who are you here with? What, you're single? But you''re 32!". Wouldn't be a wedding without them!
All in all - kick ass wedding!!
Off To A Wedding
I'm off to a wedding now. I thought they would've called off the bluff now, but this conspiracy to try to get me suited up and stuff goes on. But whatever makes them happy :)
I haven't been to many weddings unfortunately. There was this one with my huge family turned out a bit dull as I remember it, was this one for my sis' best friends that was pretty funny. Then there was the one with Marcus & Linda that was a very good wedding and party afterwards but thanks to other circumstances I couldn't fully enjoy it and left early. Today I have no such problems at all! I'm totally expecting to sit there defending how "being singel is fun!" while everyone else pitties me, then drink the pain away and end up asking why noone loves me. Nah....
I haven't been to many weddings unfortunately. There was this one with my huge family turned out a bit dull as I remember it, was this one for my sis' best friends that was pretty funny. Then there was the one with Marcus & Linda that was a very good wedding and party afterwards but thanks to other circumstances I couldn't fully enjoy it and left early. Today I have no such problems at all! I'm totally expecting to sit there defending how "being singel is fun!" while everyone else pitties me, then drink the pain away and end up asking why noone loves me. Nah....
Damnit, I Hate It When I'm Right
Yeap, I was right. "Nines only goes with Nines and Fours goes with Fours. Sometimes there's the mathematical anomaly, usually when there's money involved...". Not an exact quote of House but you get the point. Official reason was "no chemistry", I dunno if 100 minutes of laughing a bit over a beer or two is reason enough to totally call it off, but atleast she gave me a chance, credit for that.
Ofcourse it is a bit hypocritical of me to say stuff like that, 'cause obviously I'm just as shallow when I make that assessment that a woman is out of my league, or even below it, but I'm pretty damn sure everyone is just as bad. But the only time this hasn't even been an issue was with "case closed" that I just thought was a beautiful person no matter what, and look what that got me! ... the search goes on ...
Oh, cookies!
Ofcourse it is a bit hypocritical of me to say stuff like that, 'cause obviously I'm just as shallow when I make that assessment that a woman is out of my league, or even below it, but I'm pretty damn sure everyone is just as bad. But the only time this hasn't even been an issue was with "case closed" that I just thought was a beautiful person no matter what, and look what that got me! ... the search goes on ...
Oh, cookies!
Feeling Inferior
Yesterday I went out on a date with a woman that really made me feel... inferior! We'd talked a bit online and I'd seen a few photos of her so I'd set my expectations at a certain level. But they really didn't do her justice. So on the physical plane I was the big underdog, but usually that's ok since I most of the time feel atleast like an equal when looking beyond that, but no luck there either. So I was nervously trying to get through the 1 1/2 hour of getting to know each other talk over 2 beers trying not to screw up too badly and I think I did ok. Although I think I may have left her with the impression I was a irresponsible, gambling alcoholic computer nerd... ok, that last part is probably true...
But I'm hoping she saw that I was just nervous and will gimme the chance to make it up to her with another date. Just unlike me to get that way.
But I'm hoping she saw that I was just nervous and will gimme the chance to make it up to her with another date. Just unlike me to get that way.
Nightwish
Yeap, I did end up going to the Nightwish concert since I just can't say no. Started off with a few beers, went over there late enough for the opening act to be done with we hoped... but it wasn't so we took 2 more beers and so the show started. And what a show! Awesome! The band rocked for 2 hours like it was nothing and I loved it! Unfortunately the arena was the worst place I've ever been to a concert at (which doesn't say much) but still a kick ass evening! Now I just hope the beeping in my right ear goes away unlike the beeping in my left ear after the Moby concert - but even if it doesn't, totally worth it!
Dentists. Love 'Em Or Hate 'Em
I can't decide if I love or hate dentists. I mean there's gotta be something wrong with a person waking up every morning, going to work and spend their day in strangers mouths with all the disgusting things in there. I can't possibly imagine anyone enjoying that. But I am really grateful someone is doing that job! Then there is this whole "I learned something new today thing" - I still learn new stuff about computers and software every day, but there are only that many things that can go wrong with teeth and only so many things they can do to fix it! ... The old argument of how expensive it is isn't really holding anymore though, last time I charged for fixing a computer (2 years ago) the going rate was $120 per hour, and I wasn't that academically educated and if I f*cked up worst case was that person had to buy a new computer. A dentist goes to school for years and their worst case results in surgery and permanent injuries and she only charged me ... $120 for 40 minutes of her time.
But still, gotta be something wrong with a person for enjoying a work like that...
But still, gotta be something wrong with a person for enjoying a work like that...
I woke up today feeling pretty happy about things. I got my wheels changed on my car so I can drive this winter, I got "Sunshine" on Blueray, I saw plenty of nice women on my way to work and work has gone on pretty well. I was pretty happy. Then someone that remembered my little update a few weeks ago about "no is not always a no, sometimes it means 'try harder'" and that rape-trial that was going on. Anyway, she pointed me to a new website produced by "Operation Kvinnofrid" that was designed to talk about this kind of thing. The site is called "okejsex.nu" and at first I really liked it. And I was just looking for the "and this is for you girls - don't say no when you don't really mean it" part. And there was nothing! The entire site just has one messages - rapists are just guys not knowing where the line is drawn. There is this whole section about mutual respect and all that. The thing is if I lived by what that website is promoting (and come to think of it, I think I do...) I wouldn't be getting any sex ever at all. I got pretty pissed at it cause noway at all does it even suggest that girls saying no while meaning try harder is even an issue or that it even exists. So very biased. Oh well, atleast I got my cookies!
Too lazy
After the past months of having busy weekends I had one with absolutely no plans what so ever. Not even buying groceries or leaving the apartment. Although I eventually did both. And bought myself a new exercise bike to break.
But most of all I steamrolled through a ton of episodes of "House". I love that show. I love that character, have so much in common with that guy it's scary. From the sarcastic humor at everyones expense to the bittery view of mankind as a whole, I totally love that character. And then I changed channel to TV4 Comedy and saw Hugh Laurie in the good old Black Adder episodes, what a laugh :)
And tomorrow it's back to work again but I really did have a kick ass lazy weekend not doing shit.
But most of all I steamrolled through a ton of episodes of "House". I love that show. I love that character, have so much in common with that guy it's scary. From the sarcastic humor at everyones expense to the bittery view of mankind as a whole, I totally love that character. And then I changed channel to TV4 Comedy and saw Hugh Laurie in the good old Black Adder episodes, what a laugh :)
And tomorrow it's back to work again but I really did have a kick ass lazy weekend not doing shit.
Feeling very, very old and worn
Yesterday we had a bachelor party for my old friend Henrik. We went to the same school for 12 years and in the same class for 6 and basically spent every weekend of my 15,16 and 17 years with him, Janne and Johan. We did a very successfully kidnapping when he thought he was going for a doctor's appointment. We went to play some paintball (which hurt more than I remember), dinner at Fridays, then some relaxing spa and finishing off at a nightclub near his home so he could easily get home if we got _that_ loaded. It was around 12 hours of fun for everyone (I hope) while drinking loads amounts of beer. Really good stuff. The only problem was that nightclub stuff. I've never liked nightclubs really but at the very least I get drunk and some blackjack. We ended up at Garbo's which is a place I used to sped alot of weekends at when I worked at MinDator back when I was 20-25. Back then it was fun. This time it was just sad. The meat market feeling was 10 times worse than I remember it. And I was just laying back and just not even bothering. Some of the guys, most of which were hitched, asked why I wasn't up picking up some of the very nice chicks there (and some of them were hot enough to make me believe in god again), my response was 1) It's gone to the point where I don't even bother, too much work and 2) ... would you really wanna drag a chick that dresses like that home to mother? I just can't bother with it any more, and it's alot of fun watching some guys try really hard and not noticing that "get me out here!" looks the girls give their friends :)
And then there was the music. It wasn't too loud it was just... 80% of the music people danced to were music I used to enjoy and dance to when I was half my current age, it was just hotted up with a tempo beat. Just so completely wrong and it felt so recycled and when "Mr Vain" played it felt like all this kids should just leave and let the old schoolers rock the dance floor :)
But generally a VERY succesfull evening!! Pictures!!
And then there was the music. It wasn't too loud it was just... 80% of the music people danced to were music I used to enjoy and dance to when I was half my current age, it was just hotted up with a tempo beat. Just so completely wrong and it felt so recycled and when "Mr Vain" played it felt like all this kids should just leave and let the old schoolers rock the dance floor :)
But generally a VERY succesfull evening!! Pictures!!
Still A Sucker For Tradition
A while back I made an update that I'm a sucker for tradition. And today I'm proving that yet again - if I were to call anyone up and say "happy birthday" out of the blue they would be completely shocked and wonder what tha hell was wrong with me. I just don't do it. I either forget it or it's not a big deal or that person don't wanna be reminded of it, or I do think about it but before I actually make it happen something else comes up.
Well today is my sister's 24th birthday (ok, not really 24th but let's play 'pretend'!) and I totally know it, I've had plenty of time to call her, hell I've even talked to her this morning, but it's just not me. It's almost a tradition by now. Which is a weird tradition to NOT do something. But weird is good...
Well today is my sister's 24th birthday (ok, not really 24th but let's play 'pretend'!) and I totally know it, I've had plenty of time to call her, hell I've even talked to her this morning, but it's just not me. It's almost a tradition by now. Which is a weird tradition to NOT do something. But weird is good...
Being the bad guy
One of the reasons I've gotted used to when being dumped is that I'm too nice, too harmless. I dunno why chicks don't dig that, but they don't.
But yesterday I had to use it when calling it off with a girl I'd dated. I'd gotten to know her through one of the more serious websites and it was all good, we got along great. So we went out and she was one of the nicest women I've ever gone out with and I really wanted to like her. But after a week and not feeling anything more than "she's nice" I had to call it because going on for longer I'd just be kidding myself and getting her hopes up while wasting both our time. But it really sucked having to split when I knew what a nice woman she was and that she would've been 10 times better for me than some of the women I've actually fallen for.
... go go Vulcans!!
But yesterday I had to use it when calling it off with a girl I'd dated. I'd gotten to know her through one of the more serious websites and it was all good, we got along great. So we went out and she was one of the nicest women I've ever gone out with and I really wanted to like her. But after a week and not feeling anything more than "she's nice" I had to call it because going on for longer I'd just be kidding myself and getting her hopes up while wasting both our time. But it really sucked having to split when I knew what a nice woman she was and that she would've been 10 times better for me than some of the women I've actually fallen for.
... go go Vulcans!!
...
Took the last and final step in the long dance with "Chapter Closed" and removed her as friend on Facebook. I thought we'd be cool but everytime I saw her name flash by I got more and more negative vibes and in the end there was just two options - talk it out with her or remove her so I wouldn't see her name flash by. And she made it clear she don't wanna talk it out...
But I'm happy cause I've got a date tomorrow :)
But I'm happy cause I've got a date tomorrow :)
I'm Losing It
Weird weekend that was! On thursday I had a date (went pretty good), on friday I decided to try out jogging now that my bike is broken then got busy Warcrafting and then the new computer game Hellgate hit the stores. On saturday I squezed myself into a pair of 34" waist jeans... two things about that that just makes me think I'm going nuts - first of all jeans. I haven't worn jeans since the 80's basically. So why now? Well quite a few women have said "now that you've lost all that weight, when are we gonna see you in jeans?" so I had to do it only to shut them up. And they were 34" waist!! Back in may I was wearing 42" !! That's 8 inches gone in 4 months! (not counting the last month since I haven't lost anything in the past weeks)!!
Then we hit the sci-fi convention that was in town over the weekend, followed that up by catching "1408" (slightly disappointing movie) and finished the weekend with even more Warcrafting and jogging. Man that was a busy weekend. And this week I didn't have much planned at all. Now I got go-carting on thursday, dinner with friends on friday, probably date-dinner on saturday and home to my parents for father's day on sunday. And I'm not even trying to keep busy, I just am!
Then we hit the sci-fi convention that was in town over the weekend, followed that up by catching "1408" (slightly disappointing movie) and finished the weekend with even more Warcrafting and jogging. Man that was a busy weekend. And this week I didn't have much planned at all. Now I got go-carting on thursday, dinner with friends on friday, probably date-dinner on saturday and home to my parents for father's day on sunday. And I'm not even trying to keep busy, I just am!
Contrasts
I just love contrasts and today I got the best one yet! The train I take to work in the morning starts 2 stations ahead of me so by the time it comes to my station it isn't very well heated. And this was a pretty cold morning. So I get on the train and squeeze myself into a corner seat next to the radiator that was set to max burn. So on my left side I'm all warm and good and my hand is almost too hot, but on my right side it's cold and my right hand is almost freezing. Interesting scenario :)
"Is there a doctor in the house!?"
Ok, that is a pretty bad comment but it's such an obvious joke when you create a TV show about a doctor called House!?
My weekend was so slow (but not boring!) that I downloaded and watched the first season of "House M.D". It's pretty funny and at the same time worrying how much can go wrong with the human body! I mean if I wasn't a hypocondriac before I saw the show I'm pretty sure I am now, can't even sneeze without thinking about the preassure that it puts on my body!
And I've been doing alot of riding my exercise bike in the past months. So much that I think I broke it. And I have no idea where to hand in stuff like that for service. So I guess I'll gain a few pounds again :(
My weekend was so slow (but not boring!) that I downloaded and watched the first season of "House M.D". It's pretty funny and at the same time worrying how much can go wrong with the human body! I mean if I wasn't a hypocondriac before I saw the show I'm pretty sure I am now, can't even sneeze without thinking about the preassure that it puts on my body!
And I've been doing alot of riding my exercise bike in the past months. So much that I think I broke it. And I have no idea where to hand in stuff like that for service. So I guess I'll gain a few pounds again :(
Weekend Again!?
Wow, that week went by way too quickly. And nothing in particular happened. Not that I'm gonna bore you with anyway. As a matter of fact it's been a really boring week. Usually that's a symptom that you've got some kick ass weekend you're looking forward to that the week just flies by, and that's the weird thing, I was sure I'd made some plans for this weekend with someone but just can't remember what it was?! Coming up empty which means it's gonna be a slow weekend with Warcraft, catching up with Heroes and movies and hoping someone calls and say "hey, got a party brewing, come over" :)
Accidentally caught some live show with Avril Lavigne, you know that small pissed off 17 year old canadian that was big in 2001/2002? ... she grew up really nicely. Not a big fan of her music unfortunately.
Accidentally caught some live show with Avril Lavigne, you know that small pissed off 17 year old canadian that was big in 2001/2002? ... she grew up really nicely. Not a big fan of her music unfortunately.
Learn to communicate!
This weekend we had a kick-off conference thing planned for the entire IT department at work, which is a total of 13 people. The last 2 events we've done haven't been that successfull so my expecations weren't high at all. And when we got there and there was a guy there that started talking that we were gonna learn to communicate better and that'd help us professionally as well as privately. My usual "yeah right, as if he knows my job, this ain't gonna help me one bit"-persona kicked in but I am at least gonna hear him out. So I listened to him carefully and followed his arguments and stuff he said and... well, I don't think he said much I didn't already know and not alot that we couldn't figure out for ourselves and most of it was "ofcourse", but his way of presenting it and giving real life examples and adapting to exactly how it would help me every day thinking about those things and how to deal with people of different personalities and handling stuff like that, it was quite interesting. And it certainly will affect me professionally, no doubt about it. Personally?... probably not, but we'll see. Overall a very good weekend. And I got to do a bit of cooking when we actually had to cook our own 4 course dinner which was pretty fun. Just too bad it sucks cooking dinner when you're single :)
I tried avoiding the camera as well but one guy from our Gothenberg branch caught me and I'm pretty happy with the result! (yes, photoshopped slightly)
I tried avoiding the camera as well but one guy from our Gothenberg branch caught me and I'm pretty happy with the result! (yes, photoshopped slightly)
"All of lifes really important questions are answered in the movies!"
Actually don't remember exactly where that quote is from, think it was some "Star Trek Deep Space Nine" episodes?
ANYWAY, let's get a little bit less serious than yesterday. 'Cause I've been catching up on some movies and wanna share some opinions:
Bourne Ultimatum : I likes this series of films. Alot. The first one was really good but the second one was a bit of a letdown with all the action but not much storywise. But this one made up for that. Highly recommended. And not alot of romance to spoil it either.
Resident Evil Extinction : Again, loved the first one but second one was just a bit too much flipped out for my liking and having two action chicks didn't really work. But this one made up for that a bit. Not quite as good as the first but better than the 2nd.
28 Weeks Later : Sequel to 28 days later which I never really got what the point was. And same with this, didn't really get the point. And except for that tilted helicopter scene just a big waste of time.
Knocked up : Surprisingly deep but not as funny as I hoped it would be. Still recommend it though. And good sex ed film for kids :)
ANYWAY, let's get a little bit less serious than yesterday. 'Cause I've been catching up on some movies and wanna share some opinions:
Bourne Ultimatum : I likes this series of films. Alot. The first one was really good but the second one was a bit of a letdown with all the action but not much storywise. But this one made up for that. Highly recommended. And not alot of romance to spoil it either.
Resident Evil Extinction : Again, loved the first one but second one was just a bit too much flipped out for my liking and having two action chicks didn't really work. But this one made up for that a bit. Not quite as good as the first but better than the 2nd.
28 Weeks Later : Sequel to 28 days later which I never really got what the point was. And same with this, didn't really get the point. And except for that tilted helicopter scene just a big waste of time.
Knocked up : Surprisingly deep but not as funny as I hoped it would be. Still recommend it though. And good sex ed film for kids :)
No, "No" Is Not Always A "No"..
The biggest news here in sweden is a rape-trial that just finished with the "guilty!" verdict. I don't know the exact details but I'm getting a bit frustrated... Everone and their cousins are hurrying to say "this a good verdict since the court have finally ruled that a no is really a no".
I'm sorry to burst bubbles but what kinda fucked up dating world did they live in, if any !?
I've lived the single's life and somewhat active dating life for about a decade and no, it really isn't. After having played all those mind games and walked the mindfields, trying to play mindreader and all those hoops that chicks today make you go through the one thing I've learnt is "no" is most of the time really a "try harder". I was raised with the utmost respect for women so I've always accepted a no as a no which is why it totally backfires with all the girls that says something but really means something else.
Ofcourse there's a big difference between dating and saying no when it comes to the actual sex part but it's kinda the old story of the boy who cried wolf - after turning so many no's into yes' I can see how someone might not take that last no as a real no.
Ofcourse rape is always wrong and noone should ever say anyone deserves it and ofcourse in this case it was pretty clear the bastards were guilty and ofcourse I will always respect a no and I will never say it's ok for any guy to have sex with a chick that's not into it that's not what this post is about - I get so fed up with everyone being politically correct by saying a no is always a no. Cause it ain't. And I didn't make the rules and I'm not even playing those games anymore.
Let me tell you about the latest mine that blew up in my face. This was on saturday when sweden was playing a qualifying match against Lichtenstein for the soccer European Championship. It was our fourth date and we went to Heron City to catch a movie and afterwards she wanted to go eat something and I named every restaurant in the vicinity and got to "O'Learys" and she said "let's go there! they have good food there, and you can watch the soccer game". Now I'm not that crazy about sports but I do like to see the game if sweden is playing. And this game was a slam dunk victory, Lichtenstein isn't that good. So I would never have suggest going there cause I wanted to see the soccer game nor would I have cried had I missed it. But she wanted to go there. But ofcourse that was a trap. I should ofcourse have called a limo to take us to an italian restaurant with candlelight and all that. Which is ofcourse what I would have done had she given any clue that she liked that kind of romantic stuff... *sigh* .. next date I'm gonna make it clear that she had better be straightforward with stuff like that.
Now I'm done and gonna expect a call from my very upset mother yelling at me for saying that rape is ok... which I didn't really say...
I'm sorry to burst bubbles but what kinda fucked up dating world did they live in, if any !?
I've lived the single's life and somewhat active dating life for about a decade and no, it really isn't. After having played all those mind games and walked the mindfields, trying to play mindreader and all those hoops that chicks today make you go through the one thing I've learnt is "no" is most of the time really a "try harder". I was raised with the utmost respect for women so I've always accepted a no as a no which is why it totally backfires with all the girls that says something but really means something else.
Ofcourse there's a big difference between dating and saying no when it comes to the actual sex part but it's kinda the old story of the boy who cried wolf - after turning so many no's into yes' I can see how someone might not take that last no as a real no.
Ofcourse rape is always wrong and noone should ever say anyone deserves it and ofcourse in this case it was pretty clear the bastards were guilty and ofcourse I will always respect a no and I will never say it's ok for any guy to have sex with a chick that's not into it that's not what this post is about - I get so fed up with everyone being politically correct by saying a no is always a no. Cause it ain't. And I didn't make the rules and I'm not even playing those games anymore.
Let me tell you about the latest mine that blew up in my face. This was on saturday when sweden was playing a qualifying match against Lichtenstein for the soccer European Championship. It was our fourth date and we went to Heron City to catch a movie and afterwards she wanted to go eat something and I named every restaurant in the vicinity and got to "O'Learys" and she said "let's go there! they have good food there, and you can watch the soccer game". Now I'm not that crazy about sports but I do like to see the game if sweden is playing. And this game was a slam dunk victory, Lichtenstein isn't that good. So I would never have suggest going there cause I wanted to see the soccer game nor would I have cried had I missed it. But she wanted to go there. But ofcourse that was a trap. I should ofcourse have called a limo to take us to an italian restaurant with candlelight and all that. Which is ofcourse what I would have done had she given any clue that she liked that kind of romantic stuff... *sigh* .. next date I'm gonna make it clear that she had better be straightforward with stuff like that.
Now I'm done and gonna expect a call from my very upset mother yelling at me for saying that rape is ok... which I didn't really say...
Music
I never seize to be amazed at how music can make you feel, and how music can make you remember certain events and times and sometime an exact moment with all the details.
Some examples : Uncle Crackers "Follow Me" remind me of novemer/december 2001 when I had just gotten my drivers license and everytime I borrowed my dads car that song was playing on the radio. Spin Doctors "2 Princes" reminds me of a mini-marathon school event that I never ran cause of my asthma and as I was sitting in the control booth enjoying a warm sunny summer day that song thumping. Simple Minds "Don't You Forget About Me" of the night I met "case closed" and she had no clue about the song and I knew (and was drunk enough to sing!) every word, Linkin Parks "Somewhere I Belong" about that perfect moment back in May... I could go on with like 100 songs that has that affect.
It's really weird and there's probably been a good psychological study on it that I'd love to read. It also really helps me doing my daily 30 minute on the exercise bike seem like 10 minutes when thumping Rammstein. Unfortunately my neightbour didn't agree with me...
Why am I talking about that? Because I just downloaded a gigabyte or so of remixed 80's and 90's songs and it just got me so happy listening to them :)
Some examples : Uncle Crackers "Follow Me" remind me of novemer/december 2001 when I had just gotten my drivers license and everytime I borrowed my dads car that song was playing on the radio. Spin Doctors "2 Princes" reminds me of a mini-marathon school event that I never ran cause of my asthma and as I was sitting in the control booth enjoying a warm sunny summer day that song thumping. Simple Minds "Don't You Forget About Me" of the night I met "case closed" and she had no clue about the song and I knew (and was drunk enough to sing!) every word, Linkin Parks "Somewhere I Belong" about that perfect moment back in May... I could go on with like 100 songs that has that affect.
It's really weird and there's probably been a good psychological study on it that I'd love to read. It also really helps me doing my daily 30 minute on the exercise bike seem like 10 minutes when thumping Rammstein. Unfortunately my neightbour didn't agree with me...
Why am I talking about that? Because I just downloaded a gigabyte or so of remixed 80's and 90's songs and it just got me so happy listening to them :)
"You're undecided now, so what are you gonna do?"
Now a friend of mine wants me to go to the Nightwish concert in December here in Stockholm and I'm a bit undecided. Their latest CD is... weird. It's a mix of so very many things I don't know what to make of it... some of it sounds very much like the Metallica vs. San Fransisco orchestra concert and some of it like old viking music. But I haven't gone to a concert in a long time. And I still can't say no to women. So I guess I'm going...
Alot to say - but how and where
There's alot going on but I really don't know how much I can say without having to face the music "in real life". That "chapter closed" is still closed, we're simply just not talking anymore which makes me kinda sad how something so good can end so badly. But I did manage to get another date through the web-dateing site, but she had found this place even before we first met so I'm not gonna go into details, don't wanna ruin another one. And I "dinged" 93 kilos the other day ("dinged" is a very technical World of Warcraft term for achieving a goal), but unfortunately I've really slacked the past few days so gotta be careful with that. Other than that - life walking along nicely with my biggest concerns being if I should buy a new 8 gig Clix MP3 player or wait for the 16 gig Apple iTouch.
Chapter closed, book buried, land burnt, planet nuked and sun went nova!
So remember that "chapter closed" comment, it had one little reservation - "anything revolutionary happening". Well it did. For the worse. And I got so pissed of at it I was jumping around my apartment trying to let it all out. I'm surprised my knuckles are still working. No, no details. It was just ... bad.
But what is good is I wook up, wasn't as pissed but still pretty much on the dark side but by the time I got to work I was smiling and feeling "life is good". Moby's "Everloving" and a long outside walk to work at lunchtime will do that to you. Life is just too short to stay mad at people and carry grudges.
But what is good is I wook up, wasn't as pissed but still pretty much on the dark side but by the time I got to work I was smiling and feeling "life is good". Moby's "Everloving" and a long outside walk to work at lunchtime will do that to you. Life is just too short to stay mad at people and carry grudges.
Excellent Planning
That comment yesterday may need explanation and if she wants one I'll be happy to, just not here. I have no problems laying out my whole life here, but this wasn't only my life.
But anyway!... I don't know how I do it. I am not good at counting exactly how much money I spend, where it goes and exactly how much I have left but on any given month I have a few hundred left on the 24th (since 25th is payday). I can't remember the last time it didn't work out, somehow. Well guess what - it's the 24th and I have 30 swedish crowns left and 6 hours to payday! How's that for planning?! .. ofc it did mean taking the car to work but I'm a problem solver!
But anyway!... I don't know how I do it. I am not good at counting exactly how much money I spend, where it goes and exactly how much I have left but on any given month I have a few hundred left on the 24th (since 25th is payday). I can't remember the last time it didn't work out, somehow. Well guess what - it's the 24th and I have 30 swedish crowns left and 6 hours to payday! How's that for planning?! .. ofc it did mean taking the car to work but I'm a problem solver!
Feeling Superior
I had written an update here after I got home from a party yesterday, but after thinking about it I realised it wasn't appropriate. I'll just sum it up with this - I've never wanted a girl in her undies less than I did yesterday. Those who gets it gets it, those who don't don't need to.
Tuesdays
Back when I was in college (like 13 years ago) I started a pretty bad habbit. I went to bed way too late on saturday, which meant waking up at noon on sunday which resulted in not falling asleep until 2am on sunday -> monday and up at 6 to get to school (or now "work") and this all resulted in me hating to get up on tuesday morning since my body desperately needed to catch up on the sleep. It was a huge problem back then cause I think I missed like 7-8 tuesday lectures, which was alot considering I was only going to lectures for 3 months until I went into "forget the questions someone give me another beer"-mode. And it still plagues me. This morning I was totally considering calling in sick 'cause I had less than 0 energy. But my allegiance to my friend and collegue Peter that would've had a terrible day alone was too great so I dragged my ass up and onto the train. And by the time I got to Stockholm it was all normal and now after an italian lunch I so wanna go back to bed again. Am I lazy or what!?
You're over me? When were you under me?
I know this is getting old. About 10 months old. But just one more...
After 2 1/2 weeks she decided to write me back on that, and she did it with something borderlining poetry which I didn't expect. But being the deep guy I can be I totally got what she wrote. Totally, 100%. Unfortunately for us she had gotten her pronounces mixed up because everytime she said "you" she meant "me" and when she said "me" she meant "you". Either that or she felt exactly what I felt but thought I felt the complete opposite. Misunderstandings sux. And I'm just too tired to sort it out, and for what?
Another weird twist was that in my response to her I kinda nailed my problem all along. I can't say I loved her (we never got that far). I'm actually not sure just how much I wanted her. But what I do know is I loved how I felt when I was with her and I would give everything for feeling what I felt at that one perfect moment back in May.
But, with reservation for anything revolutionary happening, I can finally say...
Chapter closed.
After 2 1/2 weeks she decided to write me back on that, and she did it with something borderlining poetry which I didn't expect. But being the deep guy I can be I totally got what she wrote. Totally, 100%. Unfortunately for us she had gotten her pronounces mixed up because everytime she said "you" she meant "me" and when she said "me" she meant "you". Either that or she felt exactly what I felt but thought I felt the complete opposite. Misunderstandings sux. And I'm just too tired to sort it out, and for what?
Another weird twist was that in my response to her I kinda nailed my problem all along. I can't say I loved her (we never got that far). I'm actually not sure just how much I wanted her. But what I do know is I loved how I felt when I was with her and I would give everything for feeling what I felt at that one perfect moment back in May.
But, with reservation for anything revolutionary happening, I can finally say...
Chapter closed.
Everything under control
There's not alot happening at the moment. Life goes on, throws its curve balls but nothing major at all right now. Got a relaxing weekend which is probably gonna result in me seeing 300 twice, good thing it's a good movie! And some sweet formula one from Belgium which is always offering some surprises. And I hit 94 kilos this morning which I guess means I might as well continue until 89 (why make it even?). And as expected when I tried to get deep and talk emotions with "her" she shut down. And we're bound to meet up again at a party next weekend so looking forward to that... or am I... oh well, gonna enjoy this rainy Friday with a beefy burger and complete apathy towards everything!
Great expectations
I should have learned by now - never go into something with very high expectations. I went into this weekend with very high expectations and as always got disappointed. Friday night was ok but should've been better, it just never kicked off, it was just mediocre. Although saturday was completey up to expectations but sunday was just awful, terrible F1 race and very boring WoW raid and today I feel a bit disappointed. So let's go into the next weekend with no expectations at all - even if it is a F1 weekend again!
"I can't wait for the weekend to begin"
One more weekend full of plans, all of it good!
Tonight - beer & dining with some friends to celebrate a guy's 30th birthday. Tomorrow - after the f1 qualifying going back home to my parents for a day of fun with even more beer and my mothers special cooking. And on sunday going to O'Learys to enjoy the F1 race with even more beer and their special cooking, and ending it all with an evening of WoW. I wish every weekend could be like that!
Have fun!
Tonight - beer & dining with some friends to celebrate a guy's 30th birthday. Tomorrow - after the f1 qualifying going back home to my parents for a day of fun with even more beer and my mothers special cooking. And on sunday going to O'Learys to enjoy the F1 race with even more beer and their special cooking, and ending it all with an evening of WoW. I wish every weekend could be like that!
Have fun!
No Good Deed Goes Unpunished
The downside of loosing that weight is ofc now I gotta buy alot of new clothes. And the thing is I don't know I'm quite done loosing it, wanna hit below 90 for the first time since I was 18. I know, it's a far fetched goal but it's something to aim at! But today I did something I haven't done in a long, long time. 6 years to be exact. I bought a new leather jacket. I haven't had to buy jackets for a long time since I got alot of free stuff when I worked as a consultant. But now I had to buy one and it set me back $200 but well worth it. That almost made up for my visit to the dentist earlier today that didn't only set me back $100 but also showed I need overhaul in there and that's always expensive...
Cats and dogs living together!? It'll be anarchy!!
$10 if you know where that quote comes from :)
I don't like a little bit of chaos. I get too worked up and think too much and it's just wrong. Like if the train is 10 minutes late I'll get worried about making it into to work and that thing I had to do first thing in the morning. But fortunately, when the shit really hits the fan I have a really good ability to just lay back and enjoy the chaos and anarchy. And today was one of those times! I got to the trainstation at my usual time, 7:15. And it was a madhouse, no trains going nowhere. So I go to the taxi stop right next to it and there are like hundred people waiting for taxis there, everyone worried about their little thing. So I get into my car instead and start driving and it's total chaos on the roads too. Tunnels closed, alot of construction works, accidents, really everything shitty happened this morning. And there I was, sitting in the middle of it all and all I could think about was.. "I forgot to shave this morning"...
I don't like a little bit of chaos. I get too worked up and think too much and it's just wrong. Like if the train is 10 minutes late I'll get worried about making it into to work and that thing I had to do first thing in the morning. But fortunately, when the shit really hits the fan I have a really good ability to just lay back and enjoy the chaos and anarchy. And today was one of those times! I got to the trainstation at my usual time, 7:15. And it was a madhouse, no trains going nowhere. So I go to the taxi stop right next to it and there are like hundred people waiting for taxis there, everyone worried about their little thing. So I get into my car instead and start driving and it's total chaos on the roads too. Tunnels closed, alot of construction works, accidents, really everything shitty happened this morning. And there I was, sitting in the middle of it all and all I could think about was.. "I forgot to shave this morning"...
Some people may remember I made a promise a few months ago to try to get my overweight ass down to 95 kilos from "whatever it is now" before end of my vacation. It turned out "whatever it was" was 107, so that was 12 kilos. I started mid-june and now my vacation is over with and... I just missed it... 95.5 this morning. But I'm pretty happy with that, especially considering I almost hit 120 on July 1st 2006. It's not like I'm obsessed with it or it's a huge problem for me but it felt pretty good. Gonna try 90 for next summer.
So how did I do it? Any special diet plan or technique, any atkins or something? ... nope, plain physics. One of the most basic rules in physics is energy that can't be created or destroyed, only converted from one form or another. So basically, if I eat 1.000 kalories in a day and don't convert that somehow I'll go up. So I just tipped it over - big time. Ate way too little and excercised way too much. Not the most healthy way I guess but the only way I can do it since I can't change my life to start eating healthy food and stuff and make excercise a daily thing, it just won't work. So I'll just be content condensing it and doing it for a few weeks at a time.
But today... pizza hut buffet !!
So how did I do it? Any special diet plan or technique, any atkins or something? ... nope, plain physics. One of the most basic rules in physics is energy that can't be created or destroyed, only converted from one form or another. So basically, if I eat 1.000 kalories in a day and don't convert that somehow I'll go up. So I just tipped it over - big time. Ate way too little and excercised way too much. Not the most healthy way I guess but the only way I can do it since I can't change my life to start eating healthy food and stuff and make excercise a daily thing, it just won't work. So I'll just be content condensing it and doing it for a few weeks at a time.
But today... pizza hut buffet !!
It's All Comming Back To Me Now
It took a friend reminding me of a topic of conversation on saturday night to realise what it was that had that affect on me that I couldn't explain. It seems we got to talking about computer gaming, one of the few things here in life where I rule, and _she_ (you all know her by now) expressed some opinions that ... well, let's just say that had a guy said it may have gotten physical. I dunno if I am way, way too analynical about stuff, but I can spend hours wondering about one little conversation, the phrasing or even one word. But yesterday as I was going over what was said and done on saturday evening... I think I don't like her at all anymore. Which is cool considering that for the past few months I haven't known what to feel..
Oh, pizza!!
Oh, pizza!!
What A Strange Weekend That Was
I spent friday driving around stockholm again and chilling in my apartment with my brother and watching a few movies and playing some Playstation. A very relaxed and nerdy way to spend a friday but it was enjoyable nontheless. On saturday we went down to Nynäshamn to bowl with my sister and her kid and oddly enough on the very last series we all finished within 1 point of eachother, that's how tight it was. Then it was off to a housewarming party at a friends place on the north-western side of stockholm, an area I'm pretty much never around. And it was a good party, not that wild and afaik nothing to be embarrassed over. (Update: apparently I had gotten a bit too physical at one point that got pretty embarrassing)
But something sure did happen and I don't know what. I met _her_ again at the party but I pretty much knew nothing would happen this time around and it was probably all for the best but we did talk alot and I don't know exactly about what but it must've been deep cause it got me depressed as hell the day after and I don't know why?... that woman is no good for me basically. Anyway, trying to get home from that place was surprisingly easy even without a taxi but I ended up walking. 5 kilometers. At 3 am... that's the state I was in that it seemed like a good idea at the time...
Then on sunday I crawled out of my bed at around 12-ish, walked all the way to the soffa and crashed there for 6 hours enjoying some crap movies and a pretty uneventful Formula 1 race and finished the weekend playing some WoW.
A very strange weekend for me indeed and I'm still very confused what really happened that got me depressed?...
Oh, ice cream!!
But something sure did happen and I don't know what. I met _her_ again at the party but I pretty much knew nothing would happen this time around and it was probably all for the best but we did talk alot and I don't know exactly about what but it must've been deep cause it got me depressed as hell the day after and I don't know why?... that woman is no good for me basically. Anyway, trying to get home from that place was surprisingly easy even without a taxi but I ended up walking. 5 kilometers. At 3 am... that's the state I was in that it seemed like a good idea at the time...
Then on sunday I crawled out of my bed at around 12-ish, walked all the way to the soffa and crashed there for 6 hours enjoying some crap movies and a pretty uneventful Formula 1 race and finished the weekend playing some WoW.
A very strange weekend for me indeed and I'm still very confused what really happened that got me depressed?...
Oh, ice cream!!
I Saw The Sign
As if that "you're losing your hair!" comment wasn't enough to make me feel old I got one more sign that you're getting old - "when you get the lyrics to the 'Cheers' theme".
Boldly Going Baldl
One of the few things I like about kids is that they lack this filter that grownup have that makes us unable to just say the cold simple truth about things. And this week one of my nieces showed that by spontaneously stating "you're losing your hair!". That was a funny moment :)
I've known that fact for the past year or so that it's gettig a bit barren up there but thought that I was exaggerating a bit but when she laid it out like I guess I'm not! And it's with mixed feelings really. The positives is ofc that I won't have anymore bad hair days, I won't have to get that many haircuts, I'll save money on hair products, I'll cut off another 3-4 minutes in my morning routine to sleep a little bit longer and I hope to do it Patrick Stewart / Bruce Willis / Michael Chiklis style. And the only one negative thing I can come up with is... it's another reason for chicks to pick the other guy than me. And I'm sorry for sounding so shallow but that's the single's life for you...
I've known that fact for the past year or so that it's gettig a bit barren up there but thought that I was exaggerating a bit but when she laid it out like I guess I'm not! And it's with mixed feelings really. The positives is ofc that I won't have anymore bad hair days, I won't have to get that many haircuts, I'll save money on hair products, I'll cut off another 3-4 minutes in my morning routine to sleep a little bit longer and I hope to do it Patrick Stewart / Bruce Willis / Michael Chiklis style. And the only one negative thing I can come up with is... it's another reason for chicks to pick the other guy than me. And I'm sorry for sounding so shallow but that's the single's life for you...
Ode To Platonic Friendship
About 10 years ago I met this woman when we were going to see the latest Star Trek movie "First Contact". She was all kinds of weird and interesting but also married with children so being friends would have to do. Little did I know that 10 years later we'd still be very close friends having supported each other through very rough times and I've talked to her about things I haven't talked to anyone else about. And last weekend she again proved what a great friend she is! She knows I'm a huge Battlestar Galactica fan and she somehow managed to get a hold of the Playboy issue featuring Tricia Helfer! Now how many women would do that for a guy!?
Apocalyptic
I was reading the papers the other day that was doing a summary of last few months weird weather that's caused a heatwave that's killed a few hundred people down in south Europe and now all the flooding in Britain that's now coming over here. And it made me wonder... how long are we talking until mankind has to go into survival mode? I'm talking apocalyptic, primal "survival of the fittest" mode where morals and conscious goes out the window. It looks more and more likely it'll be in my lifetime. I honestly think we could use a good viral epidemic or something that'd wipe a billion or two, that seems to be the only thing that can help this. May sound assholish but fewer people, less consumerism, less energy, less heat, fewer problems... for the ones that survive anyway.
So glad I don't have kids...
So glad I don't have kids...
Wasted Weekend. Or?
I didn't have anything special planned this weekend. So I just kicked back, watched a movie or two, played some WoW and other stuff and just relaxed. Nothing to do and all weekend to do it. A few years ago I loved weekends like that. Dunno if I'm getting too old or what but now those weekends feels almost wasted. I feel I should either spend more time with my family or friends or be out finding the woman of my dreams or do something productive in any way. But nope.
Live Earth
So did you watch the Live Earth thingy? I did. Kinda. I watched it, but not live. I left my place at 15 and just sat the recorder to record until 8 the morning after and I watched during sunday, so I could easily fast forward the boring parts. I'm so tired of rap music from MTV that I can't stand it in these concerts. Anyway, overall I think it was a great show and they really got the message through. Personal favorites would be Wolfmother in Sydney, Linkin Park in japan, Metallica and Madonna (she may not e 20... or 30... and soon not even 40 anymore, but she can still rock like none other) in London, Joss Stone in Johannesburg, Katie Melua in Hamburg, Lenny in Rio and Alicia Keys in NY. I liked some of the small films but after seeing the same one 10 times it got boring.
The only complaint I have is actually the swedish broadcast. Especially the early broadcast when they had a guy that read everything off the internet and pretended to know music and his guests that couldn't really decide what they were and what music they liked. The evening crew was much better though, especially Per "the long haired meteorologist", he really got into the issues and sat some facts straight and had alot of interesting things to say. The night crew followed the morning crews tradition of reading stuff off the internet as they were broadcasting but not nearly as annoying. Next time I'm gonna demand to get the straight satellite feed so I don't have to put up with that shit again cause I remember they screwed up the Live 8 thing too.
One question though... how much energy does it take to run 8 big concerts like this with complete "good enough for Metallica" speakers. Just out of curiosity?...
The only complaint I have is actually the swedish broadcast. Especially the early broadcast when they had a guy that read everything off the internet and pretended to know music and his guests that couldn't really decide what they were and what music they liked. The evening crew was much better though, especially Per "the long haired meteorologist", he really got into the issues and sat some facts straight and had alot of interesting things to say. The night crew followed the morning crews tradition of reading stuff off the internet as they were broadcasting but not nearly as annoying. Next time I'm gonna demand to get the straight satellite feed so I don't have to put up with that shit again cause I remember they screwed up the Live 8 thing too.
One question though... how much energy does it take to run 8 big concerts like this with complete "good enough for Metallica" speakers. Just out of curiosity?...
Going Geek
Talk more about the Live Earth concert tomorrow, right now I'm gonna go all geek on you. Two major things in the geek world at the moment that's pissing me off alot at the moment.
First one is Piratebay again. Remember that site that hosts alot of torrent links with which you can download movies, music and all that stuff. Swedish police have tried shutting it down for years, and two years ago our attorney general, Tomas Bodström, pretty much ordered a raid after getting a call from Hollywood and swedish police confiscated all hardware, which shut down alot of unrelated sites who happened to be there in the same datacenter. It was the biggest abuse of power and should have blown up big. And it kinda did cause they lost the election a few months after. But now the guy who was the attorney general is in charge of an anti-child pornography organisation that reported piratebay for hosting child pornography which is gonna result in them getting blacklisted on swedish ISP's so swedes won't be able to visit the site. Total powerabuse again! And believe me, every time child pornography is found on that site 10.000 geeks report it right away and it's removed fast as hell. 'Cause just because we think it's ok to download a movie that's not worth the cost of going to the movies doesn't mean we have more tolerance for that shit!
Then it's a consumerist site in the states that got reports that Geek Squad (a bunch of computer geeks fixing everyone's computer Ghostbuster style) techies were copying stuff of the computers that they were fixing. So they rigged a computer with porno and sent it in with orders to fix something completely unrelated and recorded as the techie copied the stuff and "OMG! the invasion of privacy!! he even copied my holiday pictures!". I've done my time trying to fix computers like that and believe me... it's common. It's so common that I didn't even think people did not know that. Don't they remember how Gary Glitter got caught? He had child pornography on his computer when it broke down, he handed it in and the geek fixing it saw it and reported it to the police. Copying porn, MP3's, movies or software isn't an invasion of privacy (ok, maybe if the porn features you) and I'm fairly sure all these places have a clause saying "we will search your harddrive". And about the holiday pics? Do you really think geeks wants to see your holiday pics? Nope, it just ends with JPG and was just got copied because you wanted your computer back asap, when the geek sees it he'll hardly save it. Ofc where I work now this doesn't happen since we have a "do not save files on your harddrive, and everything on your harddrive belongs to the company!" policy.
Why do people think geek don't have morals or integrity?!
First one is Piratebay again. Remember that site that hosts alot of torrent links with which you can download movies, music and all that stuff. Swedish police have tried shutting it down for years, and two years ago our attorney general, Tomas Bodström, pretty much ordered a raid after getting a call from Hollywood and swedish police confiscated all hardware, which shut down alot of unrelated sites who happened to be there in the same datacenter. It was the biggest abuse of power and should have blown up big. And it kinda did cause they lost the election a few months after. But now the guy who was the attorney general is in charge of an anti-child pornography organisation that reported piratebay for hosting child pornography which is gonna result in them getting blacklisted on swedish ISP's so swedes won't be able to visit the site. Total powerabuse again! And believe me, every time child pornography is found on that site 10.000 geeks report it right away and it's removed fast as hell. 'Cause just because we think it's ok to download a movie that's not worth the cost of going to the movies doesn't mean we have more tolerance for that shit!
Then it's a consumerist site in the states that got reports that Geek Squad (a bunch of computer geeks fixing everyone's computer Ghostbuster style) techies were copying stuff of the computers that they were fixing. So they rigged a computer with porno and sent it in with orders to fix something completely unrelated and recorded as the techie copied the stuff and "OMG! the invasion of privacy!! he even copied my holiday pictures!". I've done my time trying to fix computers like that and believe me... it's common. It's so common that I didn't even think people did not know that. Don't they remember how Gary Glitter got caught? He had child pornography on his computer when it broke down, he handed it in and the geek fixing it saw it and reported it to the police. Copying porn, MP3's, movies or software isn't an invasion of privacy (ok, maybe if the porn features you) and I'm fairly sure all these places have a clause saying "we will search your harddrive". And about the holiday pics? Do you really think geeks wants to see your holiday pics? Nope, it just ends with JPG and was just got copied because you wanted your computer back asap, when the geek sees it he'll hardly save it. Ofc where I work now this doesn't happen since we have a "do not save files on your harddrive, and everything on your harddrive belongs to the company!" policy.
Why do people think geek don't have morals or integrity?!
Here We Go Again #2
When I was younger, so much younger than today, there was this huge concert at Wembley and simultaneously in Philly. It was called Live Aid and it was an initiative by Bob Geldoff to raise awareness of the starvin marvins (south park joke). Then it was Live 8 two years ago that was basically about how the northern heamosphere are ignoring the southern.
And tomorrow it's time again! But this time to raise awareness of the growing environmental issues. You know all the talk about how we're killing this planet. Or not? It's gonna go on for some 20 hours in 7 cities in 7 continents and it's gonna be big.
I dunno, maybe it's my "I remember when I was young" attitude but it's kinda hard to beat the original one. Because it was original.
And tomorrow it's time again! But this time to raise awareness of the growing environmental issues. You know all the talk about how we're killing this planet. Or not? It's gonna go on for some 20 hours in 7 cities in 7 continents and it's gonna be big.
I dunno, maybe it's my "I remember when I was young" attitude but it's kinda hard to beat the original one. Because it was original.
24
I saw season 6 of "24" last week. I dunno what to make of that show, sometimes it's getting a bit repetetive and this time it was even predictable. But I can't help it, I just have to watch the next episode. And the next. And the next. And got a big movie weekend coming up with both Die Hard 4 and Transformers that I'm actually gonna watch "the way it was meant to" :)
And Here We Go Again
And once again I failed to have a relationship that lasted more than 3 weeks. I'm quite the expert at that. This time it was my fault however, I know exactly what was wrong but there is just noway you can effect the way you feel no matter how bad you want to. Back to being single again, and I'm definitely an expert at that!
What's so provocative?
About a month ago I read an article about some new swedish song some chick had recorded and put up on the net and it had spread like a wildfire because it was such a cool song. From what I understood at the time it was basically a song about a chick out partying and picking up a guy for a one night stand and dumping him in the morning. I'm a pretty liberal guy who appreciates women that can take initiative like that so I just thought all those people dissing it and getting upset were just too prude and conservative.
Until I heard it myself the other day. To sum up the lyrics - a girl at 4 am realises it's time to hook up, grabs the first guy she sees, says "you'll do", drags him home, tells him to fuck her using all 3 holes and pound on her until she's blue and yellow like the swedish flag and then waking up next morning and saying "who tha hell are you? Noway I'd have sex with a guy like you, no matter how drunk I was, get that fuck out here". And as if that wasn't irritating enough, she couldn't sing worth a damn, there was no music at all and she wasn't even nice too look at. Sorry, but if you make a song like that you have to be able to take the criticism. But there she was sitting in the "good morning sweden!" couch wondering "what's so provocative about this song"?! ... "I dunno bitch, maybe you should sing it to all girls who've been beaten yellow and blue by guys who think they wanted it! Or maybe to all the guys charged with rape because the woman was that wasted but said 'go for it'. Or maybe to your own daughter!".... yeah, it got me upset. People who do stuff only to provoke people and then saying "what's so provocative?" annoys me.
Until I heard it myself the other day. To sum up the lyrics - a girl at 4 am realises it's time to hook up, grabs the first guy she sees, says "you'll do", drags him home, tells him to fuck her using all 3 holes and pound on her until she's blue and yellow like the swedish flag and then waking up next morning and saying "who tha hell are you? Noway I'd have sex with a guy like you, no matter how drunk I was, get that fuck out here". And as if that wasn't irritating enough, she couldn't sing worth a damn, there was no music at all and she wasn't even nice too look at. Sorry, but if you make a song like that you have to be able to take the criticism. But there she was sitting in the "good morning sweden!" couch wondering "what's so provocative about this song"?! ... "I dunno bitch, maybe you should sing it to all girls who've been beaten yellow and blue by guys who think they wanted it! Or maybe to all the guys charged with rape because the woman was that wasted but said 'go for it'. Or maybe to your own daughter!".... yeah, it got me upset. People who do stuff only to provoke people and then saying "what's so provocative?" annoys me.
Did I Forget You Again?
Busy few days. I've been to a course in Sharepoint which is gonna be big. Well, big in the computer world anyway. Other than that I'm ... actually almost afraid to write stuff here since my new... is girlfriend too soon to say?... anyway, she's reading this place so I'm careful right now.
Another thing is that a friend of mine lost her cousin during the weekend and I've done my best to support her and it got me thinking back 5 years to when I lost my best friend all of a sudden. Very depressing indeed but a good reminder that no matter how much we try to control our lives there's nothing we can do when life serves these curveballs.
Another thing is that a friend of mine lost her cousin during the weekend and I've done my best to support her and it got me thinking back 5 years to when I lost my best friend all of a sudden. Very depressing indeed but a good reminder that no matter how much we try to control our lives there's nothing we can do when life serves these curveballs.
"No, seriously..."
That date on saturday, that was very spontaneous, went pretty ok. What I liked about her was her humor so when we were having dinner and talking I think we sat the record of how many times the phrase "no, seriously..." have been used in one hour. 'Cause both of us were very sarcastic, ironic and making fun of ourselves that we just had to make sure when we were serious and not. I hope we'll get a better read on each other next time or this could get complicated and end with misunderstandings. Which wouldn't be the first time.
Other than that, life proceding as normal.
Other than that, life proceding as normal.
Cyber meatmarket
All of my friends and collegues who know I'm a good guy that deserves to find that "special someone" is telling me that I should really be into these online matchmaking places. So about 6 months ago I signed up on two of them and it's terrible. I'm sitting there going through the list thinking "too old", "too young", "too booring", "too far away", there's always something I whine about. How pathetic am I?! But the other day there was a girl there that caught my attention with a hilarious intro and we're going out tonight. Best test to see if I'm over "you know who" I guess.
The most boring thing I know
As I said a few weeks ago my doctor gave me pills and stuff for a 10 day long "get rid of all allergies" sprint. One of the things I was suppose to do was have a bath with this purple potassium shit (or "kalium" if you wanna be accurate). I usually don't take baths in my bathtub and I was reminded why. It's so very frustratingly boring. I know in my head I have atleast 10 different things I should be doing so lying there completely useless not doing anything. I even tried having my laptop there, no luck. It's still the most boring thing I know.
Finding Something To Look Forward To
So now I've been to italy and I've been to the UK, and now I honestly need to find something else to look forward to. There's midsummer's eve comming up but I've never been a big fan of that so we'll see, but I need something more. At work everything is just ticking along nicely and my personal life isn't ticking along at all at the moment. I got some vacation time coming up in august and nothing to do.
I guess I'll just surf around the web finding hilarious clips like this one with some pro stealing Bush's wristwatch, awesome :)
I guess I'll just surf around the web finding hilarious clips like this one with some pro stealing Bush's wristwatch, awesome :)
It's A Beautiful Day
Woke up at 9.30, got my ass out on my balcony and got an hour of hot sun, got on the train into stockholm, sat down on Norrmalmstorg with shades on, a cool lemon ice tea in my hand and playing Moby's "Lift Me Up" and that's when it hit me... this is life :)
And yesterday I was introduced to Facebook.com, a grown up version of Lunarstorm, for people to set up a network of friends, family, send message, share pictures and keep everyone updated what's going on. Basically what I'm doing here but here it's just me. Go over there and register and send a friends request to Kristoffer Ström!
And yesterday I was introduced to Facebook.com, a grown up version of Lunarstorm, for people to set up a network of friends, family, send message, share pictures and keep everyone updated what's going on. Basically what I'm doing here but here it's just me. Go over there and register and send a friends request to Kristoffer Ström!
I'm A Slacker
This weekend was a huge slacking weekend for me. Nothing to do on friday at all, on sunday I helped my sis moved to a new house, then out to my parents to enjoy the years first BBQ and as usual ate way way too much and thanks to the heat I couldn't work up energy to do anything more. Then today I did nothing really important all day today, some WoW, catching up on "Heros" (awesome tv show!) and ending with a GREAT Formula 1 race from Canada. Ok it wasn't great for Kubica but from a spectators POV it was a great. Kinda made up for the one from Monaco.
And this week I'm working late all week which in summertime means 13-20 which is just slacking! Gonna make sure to enjoy plenty of ice creams in Kungsan!
And this week I'm working late all week which in summertime means 13-20 which is just slacking! Gonna make sure to enjoy plenty of ice creams in Kungsan!
Not Him Too
Today Påvel Ramel died. That makes me sad but in a weird way makes me smile. Because he was one of the really good guys. He was a true entertainer. He always laughed, always had fun and made some classic songs and even started an award foundation for people with elite language skills (an award I obviously won't ever win). He was fun. He will be missed. I've never been able to order at a japanese restaurant without laughing because of him.
Back In Action
Ok, I'm back to sweden and one of the first things I'm doing is trying to transfer this site to a new server. Here's hoping that goes as well as I planned.
We had a blast in London! Walked around half the town, went out to Biggin Hill for the airshow, did even more walking and enjoyed some pub food and some texas food and alot of beer. All in all a kick ass weekend! Will write a day-by-day entry later when I have more time.
We had a blast in London! Walked around half the town, went out to Biggin Hill for the airshow, did even more walking and enjoyed some pub food and some texas food and alot of beer. All in all a kick ass weekend! Will write a day-by-day entry later when I have more time.
All I Ever Wanted, All I Ever Needed
Speaking of song lyrics I just heard one that totally describes my relationship to that girl - Depeche Modes 'Enjoy the silence'. All I ever wanted all I ever needed is here in my arms. Words are very unecessary, they can only do harm. As long as we were just lying in her soffa holding each other it was heaven and I wanted to stop time. Then we started talking and it screwed it all up. Anyway I'm off to london now, I'm in the car to the airport and writing this on my blackberry. Hi-tech for the win! Will update when I get back. And by then I'm 32! Have fun.
I Wen't To The Doctor And Guess What He Told Me
Kinda funny to use song lyrics as titles to my updates, makes them seem less negative. Anyway, I did actually go to a specialist in the field of allergies and eczema. He took one look at me, made his diagnosis and gave me prescription for all kinds of stuff like penecillin and anti-biotics and creams and said "take this stuff for 10 days and you'll feel right as rain". "But shouldn't we try to figure out and diagnose what I'm allergic to rather than kill the symptoms?"... "nope, this is genetic, nothing we can do yet, we'll kill it now and it'll stay dead for a long time and get back to me when it's bothering you again". So that's what I'm gonna start with this on monday since it's a bad idea to take all this stuff when I'm in england. Did I not mention I'm going to england this weekend?... I am.
Another thing I plan to do this summer is trying to reach 95 kilos which I haven't been down to for well over a decade. It's alot easier to squeze in the time to do that in the summer since we work an hour less here. But mind you, I have no idea how much I'm wieghing now but I'd guess 110 again.
Another thing I plan to do this summer is trying to reach 95 kilos which I haven't been down to for well over a decade. It's alot easier to squeze in the time to do that in the summer since we work an hour less here. But mind you, I have no idea how much I'm wieghing now but I'd guess 110 again.
Boring ...
So what's going on in your life? Not much happening here. As a matter of fact I had one of the most laid back weekends ever! Had a bit of a party at a neighbors apartment on saturday and tried to enjoy the F1 race at the sportsbar but that was so hard since the race was oh so boring and uneventful.
And I think I'm over that crushing blow from last weekend. And the reason I think I took it so hard was partially the way she did it but mostly because I'm 32 in a few days and still hopelessly single. And the one person I thought "this could really work!" threw me out. So let's all stand together and sing "things can only get better!"
And I think I'm over that crushing blow from last weekend. And the reason I think I took it so hard was partially the way she did it but mostly because I'm 32 in a few days and still hopelessly single. And the one person I thought "this could really work!" threw me out. So let's all stand together and sing "things can only get better!"
Hell No, Tell Me I Didn't Do That!
Yesterday we had one of those "customer events" that I'm pretty used to from working as a consultant, but the past few times I've been there as a customer which is always much nicer. This time we were treated to Casino Cosmopol. We got a presentation of the company, some poker lessons (as if I needed 'em) and a posh 3 course meal (meaning I was still hungry afterwards) and then to the blackjack table and alooooot of beer and stuff. They were buying so I didn't really notice just how much I did drink After going up 2000 and losing it again I thought I'd just call it even and go home. So there I am on the train home at 1 am with quite alot of alcohol in me and what is the absolutely worst idea at that point?... yeap, you guessed it, took up the cell and sent off a few messages. Not so bad most of them except that I had to send one to her as well! I'm such a dumb ass sometimes!! I checked the message this morning and it was a pretty good one, honest and to the point. Unfortunately, since she obviously don't feel for me what I do for her when she read it she probably just thought "looooooser, I gotta change my number!". So now the question do I send a retraction and joke about it or just ignore it... Oh man do I suck...
(Update: She had the humor to laugh at it :))
(Update: She had the humor to laugh at it :))
Vices
Today I'm gonna indulge in another vice - gambling. Got a VIP invitation to Casino Cosmopol tonight and it just might be what I need to get in a bit better mood than I am. Or it may just make it worse, who knows, I'll just go with the "take a chance" motto and see what happens. Can't get worse then last time...
It Could Be Worse
Yesterday night at about 20:37 I hit rock bottom when I got into this whole "I'm gonna die alone" bullshit, how sad is that! And that doesn't have much to do with this girl it was just a general depressing observation I made. The deep part is that that observation didn't use to be depressing.... But after getting that depressed I woke up today and just said "cheer up Brian, things could be alot worse you know!". And as if that's not enough I got these calming words from my own personal italian guru - "be yourself and enjoy what lifes brings you, your a special person sooner or later somethin good will happen, but it will always be unexpected, stop looking for it". Love you Dago - in a strictly heterosexual way.
Getting Over It
Ok, I know I defnitely took that more serious than I should. After all, in her mind we were probably only "fooling around" again even though I made it clear I was after a bit more, if only just a bit - not like I was gonna ask her to move in with me or change her life. It was just a very unique feeling for me to be so close to a woman and feeling completely comfortable. Not nervous of doing or saying the wrong thing, not looking for a way out, just completely comfortable. It doesn't happen that often and I wanted to hang on to it (yeap, singing "Somewhere I Belong" with Linkin Park). But if she feels half as much for me as I do for her I wouldn't be writing here.
So let's start work on getting over that... anyone have a five step plan for that btw?
So let's start work on getting over that... anyone have a five step plan for that btw?
What Do You Want?
I had a small ICQ chat with her yesterday and what it all boils down to is the evil question of "what do you want?". 'Cause what I want is blatantly obvious and as usual it's up to the female to set the limits of how far to go which is why I had to ask it. I dunno if I'm just too old for the "love me/love me not" games. Anyway, she couldn't come up with good answers so I just laid it out for her, she has my number, call me when she's figured it out. Which I'm pretty sure means I'll never hear from her regarding this ever. Which leaves me wondering what'll happen next time we meet at a party? Knowing me I'll probably exercise the better part of valor and leave cause I don't wanna feel like I did yesterday ever again.
What do I want?... I wanna quote Max Payne (the videogame): "The things that I want by Max Payne. A smoke. A whisky. For the sun to shine. My wife and baby girl back. Unlimited ammo and a license to kill. Right then, more than anything, I wanted her."
Now let's start thinking about the opposite of that question - "who are you"...
(I think you're gonna have to see "Babylon 5" to know what I'm talking about)
What do I want?... I wanna quote Max Payne (the videogame): "The things that I want by Max Payne. A smoke. A whisky. For the sun to shine. My wife and baby girl back. Unlimited ammo and a license to kill. Right then, more than anything, I wanted her."
Now let's start thinking about the opposite of that question - "who are you"...
(I think you're gonna have to see "Babylon 5" to know what I'm talking about)
What Happened? I Don't Really Know
So almost 6 months after we first met and had our 3 week thing, we finally met up at a party again. Last time we saw each other I was in a bad phase and didn't really make an effort or anything and we both agreed it wasn't working and split with a hug. And since then I've been very curious what would happened when we met again at some party since it was bound to happen and yesterday was that day. There was housewarming party and I showed up with pretty clear intention of trying to get that thing between us going. Abd within the hour it was warming up and by midnight it was all good and looked like mission accomplished. But she was still sending me mixed messages and by 2 I don't think even she knew what she wanted so I pushed it by saying "I'm going home". And after a bit of fuss in the hallway where we both realised this was getting way complicated she threw me out. Not in a kind, gentle "please leave", but "get out!". After wandering around lost in thought I found a cab, went home and was completely devastated by this. Totally!
I've been going through it all in my head what I said, should've said and shouldn't have said and I honestly don't know what happened. How could we go from sweet cuddling to her throwing me out? The only reason she stated which was that I'm too nice of a guy for her and she'd end up hurting me was BS since that's exactly what she did. I don't think I've ever been hurt as bad as I was by this. Not even when that chick at work wrote that pissed of mail did I get _this_ hurt. Now I have no idea what to do next, try to call her again and see if she knows what she wants yet or what tha hell is going on. 'cause there's no doubt what I want, even after getting this burnt.
And today I was a complete wreck as well. It was suppose to be a happy day and celebrate my fathers birthday but I really put a damper on that mood.
I've been going through it all in my head what I said, should've said and shouldn't have said and I honestly don't know what happened. How could we go from sweet cuddling to her throwing me out? The only reason she stated which was that I'm too nice of a guy for her and she'd end up hurting me was BS since that's exactly what she did. I don't think I've ever been hurt as bad as I was by this. Not even when that chick at work wrote that pissed of mail did I get _this_ hurt. Now I have no idea what to do next, try to call her again and see if she knows what she wants yet or what tha hell is going on. 'cause there's no doubt what I want, even after getting this burnt.
And today I was a complete wreck as well. It was suppose to be a happy day and celebrate my fathers birthday but I really put a damper on that mood.
I'm Going Into Celebacy
Women are evil. It feels like an atom bomb went off inside me. I feel like shit. It's not worth it.
I'm going into celibacy and I can't even be bothered to spell it correctly.
I'm going into celibacy and I can't even be bothered to spell it correctly.
Women Are Evil
The other day I was out with some friends and came home late in the afternoon and had just logged onto WoW when I get a message from "that chick I was dating back in December" asking me to "stop playing computer games and come out and join her, her best friend and a WoW buddy and see the sun!". Still incapable of saying no to women I reluctantly agreed and we went to a place to drive some go cart. Not my idea since the last time I drove one of those I had a bit of an accident. And when I get there... there's no sun and there's no "that chick I used to date back in December". She had other plans and just simply tricked me into getting outside. How very typical female of her...
Unfortunately for her we had a blast and it really was her loss :)
Unfortunately for her we had a blast and it really was her loss :)
Right Back At me
And after yesterday's little update I turned on the TV and saw a debate program and a documentary that showed that not even the scientists are in agreement over this whole greenhouse effect and as a matter of fact it's totally wrong and most of them seemed to blame our beloved sun for the increased temperature. And sure it makes more sense to blame a gigantic fireball for things getting warmer rather than gasses that makes up barely a percent of out atmosphere.
But it really doesn't take a scientist to know that millions of smoker lighting up 10 times a day is bound to result in a lot of heat, not to mentions thousands of jumbo jets flying thousands of miles. It may not be the carbon dioxide but I'm still fairly convinced it's our own doing. 'Cause blaming the sun sounds like giving up all hope and rolling over and play dead.
But enough negative talk - it's Friday, it's pay-day weekend, the weather kicks ass, we got the ice-hockey championship starting this week and I still have lots of movies and albums to listen to with my new set of speakers!
But it really doesn't take a scientist to know that millions of smoker lighting up 10 times a day is bound to result in a lot of heat, not to mentions thousands of jumbo jets flying thousands of miles. It may not be the carbon dioxide but I'm still fairly convinced it's our own doing. 'Cause blaming the sun sounds like giving up all hope and rolling over and play dead.
But enough negative talk - it's Friday, it's pay-day weekend, the weather kicks ass, we got the ice-hockey championship starting this week and I still have lots of movies and albums to listen to with my new set of speakers!
It's Summer. In April?
This may be getting old but I can't help but to be amazed at how fast this has gone! I mean in the past decades everyone has become aware that we're slowly killing this planet, but just in the past few years it's become pretty obvious to anyone how bad it is and now it's really bad! I invite every person saying this talk about greenhouse-effect is overhyped to come to stockholm now! Sweden is joked to have polar bears on the streets and here we are in april and it's summer! The sun is shining, it's 20 degrees and everyone is enjoying an afterwork beer out in the sun. This is so f*cked up. And it may be one reason why my allergies is back so damn hard after 15 years. And it's a good argument not to have kids today - would you want your kids to inherit what we screwed up ? :)
Or to quote Stanley in "The Rock" - "I mean it, honey, the world is being Fed-exed to hell in a hand cart. I really believe anyone even thinking of bringing a child into the world is coldly considering an act of cruelty."
Or to quote Stanley in "The Rock" - "I mean it, honey, the world is being Fed-exed to hell in a hand cart. I really believe anyone even thinking of bringing a child into the world is coldly considering an act of cruelty."
Small Little Update
I've been intending to make an update here but every time something else has come in between. But here I am... so what to type? My newly re-discovered allergies really don't wanna go away! I can use all the tablets and cortisone-cream that the doctors can throw at me it just won't go away. But I'm still hopeful in the "it'll blow over"-kinda way. As a result of all this I felt a bit down and tried a bit of retail therapy and bought myself a new set of speakers. So now my little corner of the universe sounds a little bit better!! Other than that ... same old same old...
All Good Things Really Do Come To An End
Got a bad reminder that all good things really do come to an end yesterday. I've been a Moby fan for years and when I saw there was a new DVD out with one of his concerts from his latest tour ("Hotel") I bought it and yesterday I had a chance to see it. It was... good. Which is rather disappointing. Usually his live shows had alot of energy and the spirit of "people jumping up and down and dancing till 5 am" (quote from the man himself during his "Glastonbury" performance). This one didn't. I don't know if it was the audience or that it was a smaller arena that did it. But it probably was that he'd changed pretty much the entire band, only one from the "good old 'Play'-days" was the drummer, Scotty. No "G-Strings" (the girls playing violins and stuff), no "RJ The DJ", no Paulo running around thumping his drums, no Greta on bass or Diane doing vocals. It wasn't as good as it used to be at all.
But what tha hell - it's friday, it's the first day of summer (according to me) and it's "Star Trek" and Formula 1 weekend! As the song goes - "things are going great and they're only getting better".
But what tha hell - it's friday, it's the first day of summer (according to me) and it's "Star Trek" and Formula 1 weekend! As the song goes - "things are going great and they're only getting better".
Horoscopes
Do you put much faith in horoscopes or anything describing you as a person through zodiacs? I haven't. From a statistical point of view, if you throw in enough crap there something is bound to be accurate and it's just been silly all along. But the other day as I was cleaning up a bit I came across one of these that was frighteningly accurate. Not only one or two things right, but everything in that very long text got it absolutely 100% dead on! And it really made my day. Unfortunately I can't really get into details because the source reference was a "Gemini"-sheet from the Museum of Erotica in Copenhagen that I picked up a few years ago, so that would be way too much information.
Rammstein
You know one of the best things about me is my open mindedness, my way of not pre-judging anything and if I do not being a stubborn asshole refusing to admit I was wrong. I've never been a big fan of metal. I go as far as Metallica and Nightwish but that's it. Well the other week I was out having more than a few beers with a few friends and ended up at Anchor, which is a bar mostly for head bangers. Which I'm certainly not. But on their TV screens they were playing the DVD of some Rammstein concert and it was a mighty impressive show. Didn't hear that much since we were there to be social, not to listen to Rammstein. But being the open-minded person I am I ordered the DVD and yesterday I decided to annoy my neighbours by putting it on. And man do those guys rock! Say what you will about the music (and since I can't understand the lyrics I can't say much about that) but the show was totally kick-ass! And the fact it was mixed in DTS made it sound that much better. Favorite number would be "Los" when they start off with an acoustic guitar and slowly build up to the balls-out climax.
This Is Not A Joke
Yesterday I went home to one of my best friends to do... absolutely nothing! Just hanging out, playing some x-box, talking through some more or less unimportant stuff... Anyway, at like 1am I thought I'd better get my ass home since it's a long drive and so off I went. It had gotten pretty chilly over the night and I was going a bit too fast through a twisty part of E18, but it's got 2 lanes and no traffic so no problem criss-crossing between the lanes. That was until there was an aqueduct, a pretty good left blind turn and all of a sudden one lane was closed for construction and at that point I lost the grip at about 90 kph thanks to the chilly road. But you know what? Thanks to me being a complete slacking computer geek I made it with two inches to spare! Me being a slacker = me still driving with winter tires. Me being a computer geek = I've mastered the art of drifting thanks to Need for Speed. Ok, the obligatory skid testing to get a license in Sweden might have helped too. So after sliding through all of that and very nearly going off the road I calmly drove the rest of the way home to contemplate my brush with death and said "missed me!".
It's All In The Head
Today I proved something pretty important - no matter what happens, if you have the attitude for it you can make a bad day great. I had a terrible start of the day with oversleeping a bit, train being canceled and next train being full and just a lot of things going bad. But then at around 9 I just decided that "today is gonna be a GREAT day, so there!". And the day continued to throw one problem after another at me, including Vodafones totally incompetent support and me having gotten all the way home before I realized I'd forgotten my keys at work and had to go back in, it didn't matter 'cause I had decided that "today was gonna be a great day". And it was! :)
Size Is A Funny Thing
About a year ago when I was out to buy some clothes again I was looking at the 42" shelf while buying pants, which was kinda embarrassing and also limited the choice of clothes I could actually buy (if I wanted to wear them that is). But after last July's awful exercise in laziness and me almost hitting 120 kilos I spent half of august and most of September going down and I almost reached 100 before I called it quits. It just wasn't fun and I enjoy food too much and when you're counting the calories while exercising it's kinda hard to enjoy a big dinner without thinking "how many hours is this on the treadmill". And yesterday was actually the first time I've been out shopping clothes since then and I can now squeeze into a 38" pants. That's sweet :)
And speaking of nutritional diets and tying that in with the talk about advertisements - Delicato, who makes really good but not that nutritious snacks and cookies, are doing a major PR campaign at the moment. And the point of them all is "our food isn't healthy"! My favorite is the one saying "Warning: May contain traces of vitamins and minerals".
Going out to a party tonight with some of the SoulCrusher gang. It's a warm-up to our 10 year anniversary party tomorrow. Not looking forward to Sunday...
And speaking of nutritional diets and tying that in with the talk about advertisements - Delicato, who makes really good but not that nutritious snacks and cookies, are doing a major PR campaign at the moment. And the point of them all is "our food isn't healthy"! My favorite is the one saying "Warning: May contain traces of vitamins and minerals".
Going out to a party tonight with some of the SoulCrusher gang. It's a warm-up to our 10 year anniversary party tomorrow. Not looking forward to Sunday...
People Are Idiots
My old saying "a person is smart but people are idiots" was proven once again today. I decided to go into Stockholm an hour earlier today to get some shopping done. I got to H&M and when I came in there was a sea of chicks there in front of me. Normally I wouldn't complain but these weren't the nice, gentle, fun and loving bunch of women, oh no, it was women out to get their piece of Madonnas' new clothing collection that premiered today. I've never witnessed this kinda thing before, always heard jokes about it. And it was so hilarious but pathetic at the same time how people who are normally intelligent behaves like a pack of animals like this... then I walked passed the lot and had the entire male section to myself.
And the other day I had a link to a hilarious commercial. Well today I have this link which is an ad for computer developers. It's fun in all languages but I can't be bothered to translate it all for you, but let's say it's full of irony, sarcasm and jokes at computer geeks expense. All good!!
And the other day I had a link to a hilarious commercial. Well today I have this link which is an ad for computer developers. It's fun in all languages but I can't be bothered to translate it all for you, but let's say it's full of irony, sarcasm and jokes at computer geeks expense. All good!!
Life Goes On
Same old same old... trying to keep my allergies and rash under control which I'm barely managing, think I may need another visit to the doctors for this soon. Had a kick ass weekend which included, but wasn't limited to, my sister, brother and nephew pulling an all nighter on Saturday to enjoy the F1 premiere from Australia. Loved it! And tonight I'm going out with my old employer "Pulsen" but as a customer for once...
Some movie reviews ; "The Prestige" - Weird movie that was hugely disappointing and was filmed weirder than "Memento". "Stranger Than Fiction" - I don't know if it's because I hit my 30's but all of a sudden there's a huge onslaught of movies about people asking "where is my life going?" and re-discovers themselves. Is that a sign or what? Pretty decent movie. And we finished off with "Eurotrip". No matter what mood you're in, that movie always works. It's a shame it didn't get any bigger than it was because it so totally owns.
Some movie reviews ; "The Prestige" - Weird movie that was hugely disappointing and was filmed weirder than "Memento". "Stranger Than Fiction" - I don't know if it's because I hit my 30's but all of a sudden there's a huge onslaught of movies about people asking "where is my life going?" and re-discovers themselves. Is that a sign or what? Pretty decent movie. And we finished off with "Eurotrip". No matter what mood you're in, that movie always works. It's a shame it didn't get any bigger than it was because it so totally owns.
Was That All There Was?
2 weeks ago we had minus degrees, we had snow and it was winter. Today I was walking around in the city in a t-shirt and wasn't the least bit cold. But I'm not complaining, the sooner we get this transition over with the sooner my allergies will settle down. Although it's pretty much under control at the moment.
Btw, LOVE this commercial. It's an ad for a Swedish internet provider and their slogan is "Our customers are used to going fast". If I wasn't already a customer I'd switch to them just for this commercial...
Btw, LOVE this commercial. It's an ad for a Swedish internet provider and their slogan is "Our customers are used to going fast". If I wasn't already a customer I'd switch to them just for this commercial...
Mind Over Matter
You know I hate taking medication, right? I'm the guy that thinks twice before even taking a pill for a headache! So when I went to the doctors and got all this stuff to combat my allergies and especially that crap that I was suppose to put in when I take a bath I hated it. But now, 3 days later it's all under control and I only had to use 2 of the 4 prescription drugs I got - very strong cortisone lotions. Didn't need that crap in my bath fortunately...
But now, aside from a bit if itching, I'd say that's over. If only i hadn't waited over 2 weeks to see a doctor...
And I won another round of Scrabble. Don't ask me how I do it cause I really don't have a clue, I just seem to be good at it...
But now, aside from a bit if itching, I'd say that's over. If only i hadn't waited over 2 weeks to see a doctor...
And I won another round of Scrabble. Don't ask me how I do it cause I really don't have a clue, I just seem to be good at it...
Going Back To My Youth
You know how I always say that things used to be better and I wanna relive my childhood? Well I take it all back today! A small part of my childhood was spent dealing with my allergies and stuff and bathing in some disgusting liquid that was suppose to make it all go away. I've surpressed most of that so it can't have been good. Well today I went to a doctor to check up on my allergies and she wrote prescription alot of stuff including this shit I have to bathe in again. Not sure I wanna do that. I mean the allergies are annoying but not to the degree I wanna put myself though that again.
Fin While It Lasted
I've had a good run health-wise for the past 2 years ever since I got rid of that damn headache. Haven't had much to complain about since then. Except now! About a week ago my allergies started acting up and bothered me but not too bad, it does that a little now and then. But now it's an all out war with rash all over! Think I may have to go to the doctor and get myself a shot of cortison if it doesn't let up soon because clarityn and lotion isn't cutting it anymore. This was one of the reasons I didn't go out, as was the fact I had just donated blood which means one beer has the same effect 5 has usually.
A Defining Day .. And I Screwed It Up
Ever had one of those days you feel was very defining, that had you done this things might have been very different? I had one of those yesterday. Probably should keep it to myself, but tha hell with it...
When me and my last "girlfriend" (it's a stretch to say that since we never got that serious) split it was under real good circumstances and both were totally cool about it and I even joked that next time we meet eachother at a party or something who knows. And I didn't wanna mess with fate too much so I didn't go out of my way to make that hapened. But that party was yesterday. Was I there? NO! For alot of reasons I said no to going out with a few of my friends and as it turns out they ended up at the same party. I have no idea what'd happened had I been there but as usual I wasn't there to find out. I'm a dork sometimes. And I could ofc blame them for not giving me a call but that wouldn't be right.
Oh well...
When me and my last "girlfriend" (it's a stretch to say that since we never got that serious) split it was under real good circumstances and both were totally cool about it and I even joked that next time we meet eachother at a party or something who knows. And I didn't wanna mess with fate too much so I didn't go out of my way to make that hapened. But that party was yesterday. Was I there? NO! For alot of reasons I said no to going out with a few of my friends and as it turns out they ended up at the same party. I have no idea what'd happened had I been there but as usual I wasn't there to find out. I'm a dork sometimes. And I could ofc blame them for not giving me a call but that wouldn't be right.
Oh well...
Back To The Bloodbank
Today I donated blood. Again. For the 10th time. And when you hit that mark you get your first pin. Me so proud :) Unfortunately it was a really bad day for the nurse who failed miserably at getting a good vein so my muscles are pretty sore and I'm bound to be a bit blueish tomorrow. Small price to pay I think.
And then the superficial part of me kicked in. The part of my brain I wanna turn off since it goes off on tangents with all kinds of crazy ideas and observations... don't read on if you wanna keep on respecting me... I may very well be spoiled with all the beautiful women at work and in Stockholm, I just need to walk around the block and I'll see atleast 10 gorgeous women... but I have yet to find the ward for beautiful women in hospitals. Seriously, where are they? Every time I've been to a hospital you may see a cute nurse or two but that's it.. Why is that? Does it mean beautiful women have superior DNA and doesn't get sick as much as the rest of us? Or is it because women aren't that beautiful before they got their make-up on (which most of the women at hospitals haven't bothered with)? Oh the great mysteries of life. To be continued...
Oooo, ice cream...
And then the superficial part of me kicked in. The part of my brain I wanna turn off since it goes off on tangents with all kinds of crazy ideas and observations... don't read on if you wanna keep on respecting me... I may very well be spoiled with all the beautiful women at work and in Stockholm, I just need to walk around the block and I'll see atleast 10 gorgeous women... but I have yet to find the ward for beautiful women in hospitals. Seriously, where are they? Every time I've been to a hospital you may see a cute nurse or two but that's it.. Why is that? Does it mean beautiful women have superior DNA and doesn't get sick as much as the rest of us? Or is it because women aren't that beautiful before they got their make-up on (which most of the women at hospitals haven't bothered with)? Oh the great mysteries of life. To be continued...
Oooo, ice cream...
Media Coverage... sigh...
You know how sometimes you get so bogged up with your own issues and you check the news and realise that all your problems are small in comparison to the rest of the world.
Yesterday was the complete opposite! I chose to stay home and take care of some practical issues like changing locks and stuff in my apartment and blocking my old badges so whoever stole my jacket couldn't get in either at work or home and all of these small things that I blow out of proportion and then I turn on the news and the biggest issue of the day was... why did Britney cut off her hair?... seriously, who the hell cares???
Yesterday was the complete opposite! I chose to stay home and take care of some practical issues like changing locks and stuff in my apartment and blocking my old badges so whoever stole my jacket couldn't get in either at work or home and all of these small things that I blow out of proportion and then I turn on the news and the biggest issue of the day was... why did Britney cut off her hair?... seriously, who the hell cares???
A Good Evening Turned Bad
On friday we had one of those "pub evenings" at work, when people stay an hour or two after work, have a few beers and gets some snacks and just talk. Pretty fun stuff. After that we stayed a few hours more and played some poker, and then out and ended on O'Learys at the central train station in stockholm. Had a few beers and I started playing blackjack and everything was going swell. I won alot of money but after over an hour sitting there I had to go to the bathroom and when I came back someone had stolen my jacket. The jacket wasn't the problem, it was my keys and my new mediaplayer (an iRiver Clix) that was in it that I'm most upset over. Right now I can't even get to my car in the garage because the keys was in the jacket. Damnit, I hate stuff like that. Now I gotta take an afternoon off work to sort that out and then I gotta buy a new Clix for $300, not to mention a new jacket. That sucks... Careless for 5 minutes and that's what happens...
However... if you know me you know I have a tendancy to be positive so... for some reason I didn't have my wallet in my jacket which it is most of the time, and I didn't have my cellphone or my commuting card in the jacket either. And I had the good fortune of having my brother there who just happened to have a spare set of keys so I could atleast get into my apartment. So... could have been worse!
However... if you know me you know I have a tendancy to be positive so... for some reason I didn't have my wallet in my jacket which it is most of the time, and I didn't have my cellphone or my commuting card in the jacket either. And I had the good fortune of having my brother there who just happened to have a spare set of keys so I could atleast get into my apartment. So... could have been worse!
Not Alot Happening
Sorry, not much happening here at all. Life going on, doing my thing, contemplating life and the meaninglessness of getting up int he morning sometimes.
Not much to report...
Oh, redoing the photo gallery so it may be offline a bit. But when it comes back it'll be better than before. I hope.
Not much to report...
Oh, redoing the photo gallery so it may be offline a bit. But when it comes back it'll be better than before. I hope.
Good Or Bad TV?
As I was playing I was also flipping around the TV channels without paying attention. It ended up on channel 5 that was showing some terrible reality show called "My Fair Lady". Now you know how I feel about reality shows right? The point of this one was that they had like 4 or 5 girls from the... shall we say "adult entertainment industry" that they were gonna convert to serious actresses by having them do Shakespeare plays. I wasn't really paying attention until one of them having failed a rehearsal of "Romeo & Juliet" and thought that she should do it her way and shoved her Romeo down on a chair and gave him a lapdance while doing the dialogue. It was pretty funny and the guy didn't know what to do. And I can't make up my mind if it's bad or good TV. I mean, most actresses can be quoting Juliet but doing it while giving a lap-dance, that's respect :)
Up And Down
This server has been acting very strangely in the past couple of days so I had to leave WoW for awhile to try to figure it out. Seems that someone had gotten access somewhere to this server and started putting up moves for download and that caused huge overload in this server. I removed all the files and hopefully capped the little security hole they go through and it should now work just fine
I Was Serious About That!
Yeap, I wasn't joking around, every hour of free time has been in WoW but on friday I'll ding 70 which is the max so after that it'll be a bit easier. Last weekend I was so totally into it that I completely missed a blizzard that had swept over sweden last weekend with all the snow and all the minus degrees that I've been yelling for. I don't like this cold but I like the fact that it's cold.
Here I Go Again!
The expansion to Warcraft was released today. Good bye.
(but before I go through the portal, here are the pictures from Italy)
(but before I go through the portal, here are the pictures from Italy)
Tons Of Fun!
Oh that was one of the best weekends of my life ! ! ! The background story : When I've played Warcraft in our old guild, "Evil Inc", we had alot of italians. One of them was called "Dago" (real name is Mario). So now that our guild is kind of splitting up me and my buddy Mats decided that we have to pay him a visit seeing as we have been playing and talking to eachother over the internet for a year now. So on friday we started our journey to Milan...
Friday : After an uneventful drive to Skavsta we checked in. Knowing Ryan Air hates luggage we decided to only have one carry on with us each and they warned us about new regulations and bla bla, "whatever, I've done this a few times"... but oh no, now there are really strict regulations regarding how volume of liquids per container and all that stuff so they confiscated my shampoo, hairspray and stuff. And after that I walked 10 meters to the tax free and bought new stuff. Doh!
Flying down there was uneventful, found the bus into Milan and taxi home to Mario at around 9 pm. Then we decided to go out for a real italian pizza, a beer and just talk. Naturually it was one of the best pizzas ever and we had no problem talking about everything. Then we got home to his place at midnight. Great time to go to bed... NOT! Mario had called some of his students from the snobby school he works at and set us up at Milan's hippest club where they had VIP passes. I don't do the club scene that much but that was pretty sweet and they were great, but unfortunately you can't talk that much. Came back at 4-4.30 something and tried getting some sleep but failed _totally_!
Saturday : After not sleeping at all it was time to get up at 11 for breakfast (and got served coffee in bed!). Then we went out to the shopping part of Milan where we found a huge, sweet cathedral and Mats went crazy with my camera 'cause he loves these things. And my own church - the Ferrari store! After some shopping it was time for lunch - best lunch ever! And after that we went out to his home town of Piacenza where we checked into the Holiday Inn and got an hour of sleep before we went to the next party! We met up with some 20 other warcraft players and some other randoms in a nice little restaurant outside of Piacenza and we sat down for a very long 4 dishes (and 4 hour!) long meal. It was so fun meeting all these people I've played with and the bizarroness of the situation, 2 clueless swedes with 20 crazy italians, half of which could barely speak english, it was just great fun. And the food was absolutely awesome! We got home at around 2.30 and this time I had no problem falling asleep.
Sunday: We got up at around 11 and got ready for another long day. We were all very very very tired so we stoped by a nice little street cafe for coffee and walked around the town for a bit, checked out the local cathedral and then we met up with some of the people from the night before for a little lunch. It was suppose to be little cause they said it was a "slice of pizza". Yeah, it was a slice of a pizza - a 2 meter pizza!! And the crust was like an 3 cm. thick and 1/2 cm thick layer of mozarella all wrapped up in ham. Massive but oh what a feeling. Somehow everything tastes better in Italy :)
After that we went out to a little midevil tourist town and walked around in there for a while looking at swords and stuff we'd never get through customs, but it was nice anyway.
Then we went back to Milan to get the bus back to the airport. After the checkin and security screening and again being robbed of my shampoo and now even hairspray we were ready to get going home. But oh no, due to fog the plane had been redirected to it's alternate airport so we had to take busses over there. That shouldn't be a problem, right? but it took around 3 hours and we lifted off at 23:59:30 as opposed to 20:35:00! The reason I know it was 30 seconds before midnight is because the captain kept yelling that the aiport shuts down at midnight since it was close to a residential area and we had to leave NOW! And we made it with 30 seconds! Landed at 3 and got home and crawled into bed at 4 am, got up at 10 and went back to work!
Oh man what a weekend that was! It totally owned everything! The food, the company, the atmosphere, everything was just awesome!!!
(pictures coming soon)
Friday : After an uneventful drive to Skavsta we checked in. Knowing Ryan Air hates luggage we decided to only have one carry on with us each and they warned us about new regulations and bla bla, "whatever, I've done this a few times"... but oh no, now there are really strict regulations regarding how volume of liquids per container and all that stuff so they confiscated my shampoo, hairspray and stuff. And after that I walked 10 meters to the tax free and bought new stuff. Doh!
Flying down there was uneventful, found the bus into Milan and taxi home to Mario at around 9 pm. Then we decided to go out for a real italian pizza, a beer and just talk. Naturually it was one of the best pizzas ever and we had no problem talking about everything. Then we got home to his place at midnight. Great time to go to bed... NOT! Mario had called some of his students from the snobby school he works at and set us up at Milan's hippest club where they had VIP passes. I don't do the club scene that much but that was pretty sweet and they were great, but unfortunately you can't talk that much. Came back at 4-4.30 something and tried getting some sleep but failed _totally_!
Saturday : After not sleeping at all it was time to get up at 11 for breakfast (and got served coffee in bed!). Then we went out to the shopping part of Milan where we found a huge, sweet cathedral and Mats went crazy with my camera 'cause he loves these things. And my own church - the Ferrari store! After some shopping it was time for lunch - best lunch ever! And after that we went out to his home town of Piacenza where we checked into the Holiday Inn and got an hour of sleep before we went to the next party! We met up with some 20 other warcraft players and some other randoms in a nice little restaurant outside of Piacenza and we sat down for a very long 4 dishes (and 4 hour!) long meal. It was so fun meeting all these people I've played with and the bizarroness of the situation, 2 clueless swedes with 20 crazy italians, half of which could barely speak english, it was just great fun. And the food was absolutely awesome! We got home at around 2.30 and this time I had no problem falling asleep.
Sunday: We got up at around 11 and got ready for another long day. We were all very very very tired so we stoped by a nice little street cafe for coffee and walked around the town for a bit, checked out the local cathedral and then we met up with some of the people from the night before for a little lunch. It was suppose to be little cause they said it was a "slice of pizza". Yeah, it was a slice of a pizza - a 2 meter pizza!! And the crust was like an 3 cm. thick and 1/2 cm thick layer of mozarella all wrapped up in ham. Massive but oh what a feeling. Somehow everything tastes better in Italy :)
After that we went out to a little midevil tourist town and walked around in there for a while looking at swords and stuff we'd never get through customs, but it was nice anyway.
Then we went back to Milan to get the bus back to the airport. After the checkin and security screening and again being robbed of my shampoo and now even hairspray we were ready to get going home. But oh no, due to fog the plane had been redirected to it's alternate airport so we had to take busses over there. That shouldn't be a problem, right? but it took around 3 hours and we lifted off at 23:59:30 as opposed to 20:35:00! The reason I know it was 30 seconds before midnight is because the captain kept yelling that the aiport shuts down at midnight since it was close to a residential area and we had to leave NOW! And we made it with 30 seconds! Landed at 3 and got home and crawled into bed at 4 am, got up at 10 and went back to work!
Oh man what a weekend that was! It totally owned everything! The food, the company, the atmosphere, everything was just awesome!!!
(pictures coming soon)
Off To Italy!
After almost two years I'm going back to Italy today! Only for the weekend, coming home on sunday night. It's a perfect example of just how social playing computer games can be - I've gotten to know a bunch of italians that I've played WoW with for about a year and now that our guild is splitting up and the WoW expansion coming on tuesday we thought "it's now or never". So now it is! So me and Mats are just about to leave now for a weekend that will be awesome!
And today I did something I've never done before - I passed the annual "let's see if your car is road-worthy". They have pretty high standards, MTV actually had a problem finding a car for "pimp my ride" since all cars were in such good condition due to this. And I've always failed on the first one, but that's good cause you get a list of things that' wrong and you go to the shop and say "fix it!". But today it passed with flying colours!!
And today I did something I've never done before - I passed the annual "let's see if your car is road-worthy". They have pretty high standards, MTV actually had a problem finding a car for "pimp my ride" since all cars were in such good condition due to this. And I've always failed on the first one, but that's good cause you get a list of things that' wrong and you go to the shop and say "fix it!". But today it passed with flying colours!!
Weird Dream That Got Me Thinking
Had a weird dream last night. I don't dream alot, or as far as I know anyway. For some reason I remembered alot of dreams when I was out travelling, but normally I don't. But last night I had a really interesting dream that got me thinking. It was basically me waking up on my 14th birthday and changed some of the things in my youth and making my teens better. Some specific things in there but nothing I'm gonna go into. But it made me really think and consider if I could do things over and change stuff... would I, and would the outcome still be good? How many things in my life that are some of the most awesome things would never have happened. I wouldn't have applied to college in Växjö if I'd known then what I know now. But if I didn't do that, I might not have gotten the job at MinDator. And had I not worked there I wouldn't have ended up at Pulsen and getting the job to travel the world. And I wouldn't be here at the lawfirm either...
I don't like dreams...
I don't like dreams...
Things Coming Out a Bit Wrong
Sometimes when I write things here I don't really think about exactly how other people will interpret it or feel about it. And as I was chatting with one of the girls I had dated last year I kinda realised how terribly special she must've felt about me saying "went through 3 girlfriends". Didn't really sound that good did it? And I don't wanna be too nasty against the other two, but the only one that really had any affect on me was the last one, for alot of reasons. The other two didn't work out and it didn't really affect me that much and I don't regret breaking it off. But I do regret not fighting more for the last one...
Anyway, been spending 2 days adding my diary entries for 2001-2004 now so you can all ready what pissed off back then. As always interesting flashback reading from when I was out travelling the world!
Anyway, been spending 2 days adding my diary entries for 2001-2004 now so you can all ready what pissed off back then. As always interesting flashback reading from when I was out travelling the world!
The Weather
This weather situation is reallt gotten me worried man. I mean over the past 10 years the freezing cold & snow has arrived later and later every year but atleast it's gotten freezing cold and we've had snow. So far this season I've yet to see the temperature go below zero and except for the blizzard in november and the 10 minutes of snow 2 days before christmas I haven't really seen any snow at all. And it's the 5th of january! I mean all of these "global warming alerts" have said we're in trouble in like 50 years or something, but the way it's now it's gonna be in 5 years.
Weird Family Trait
Every family has there odd little thing, habir or trait and ours became embarassingly obvious during the New Years Eve that I spent with my parents and sister. We were mostly just sitting around and enjoying the company and relaxed mood. And watching Vh1/Vh1 Classic and singing along to all songs, good or bad, old and new. Unfortunately there's really no logical reason why I can sing-along to "I'm a Believer" but I can. And there's really no reason why I know the videos so well that it took me one second to recognize the video for Lionel Ritchie's "Dancing on the Cieling" but I did. One of these days I'll stuff something usefull into that part of my brain...
Goodbye 2006
That's 2006 done with. Let's do a little positive overview : I went through 3 girlfriends, had a blast at work, took myself out of the country twice, got my finances in order, lost a bit of weight and haven't been to the hospital once (not counting my blood donations). A negative overview : I went through 3 girlfriends, only got out of the country twice, still don't have a savings account, I'm still at 100 kg and I ended the year in a sad "where is my life going?" kinda way.
But overall 2006 was a good year that will mostly be remembered as the year of Warcraft for me. I would never say I wasted my time on it since it was so much fun and I made so many friends. I'm actually going down to Italy to party with a few of them. But it does feel like 2006 went by way too quickly and I could've, should've, done more with that year than playing a computer game that much.
So what does 2007 have in store for me?
But overall 2006 was a good year that will mostly be remembered as the year of Warcraft for me. I would never say I wasted my time on it since it was so much fun and I made so many friends. I'm actually going down to Italy to party with a few of them. But it does feel like 2006 went by way too quickly and I could've, should've, done more with that year than playing a computer game that much.
So what does 2007 have in store for me?
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